Addiction~Prinxiety

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"It's ok, Querido." Roman just sat there on his bed holding Virgil close as the other cried in his chest. "Just let it out. Go right ahead and cry, mi príncipe perfecto. Mi amorosa flor... Just let it all out." Virgil shook crazily in his arms as Roman gently ran a hand through the smaller's hair, his other hand rubbing his back as he just held him tight. "I've got you, Mi pequeño girasol dulce."

"I'm not going anywhere. Ok? So just let it all out, Mi encantador real. That's it, mi gloriosa luna. That's it." Virgil sobbed loudly staining the grey shirt Roman had on with tears, eyeliner, and eyeshadow. Roman didn't care any. The only thing that mattered was his love.  Virgil was the ONLY thing Roman cared about at the moment. "It's ok, mi brillante estrella brilla." Virgil was crying so head he was starting to choke making Roman become concerned. "No, hey... Virgil, breathe. Please, breathe? Mi rosa lavanda... Mi oscuro amor... Mi todo y mucho más ... Virgil, por favor? Breathe for me?"

"I-I'm s-sorry." Roman only shook his head as he held him close hoping that his love would be able to feel his breathing and match him. "I'm sorry."

"It's ok, Luz de mi vida. I've got you."

"But you shouldn't. Roman, I hurt you." Roman frowned as Virgil just shook in his arms unable to pull away but guilty over staying. "You shouldn't have to be the one to help me after what I did."  

"Virgil..."

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."

"VIRGIL!" Virgil jumped, pressing himself further into Roman, simply sighed sadly. "I'm sorry for yelling, but I NEED you to listen to me ok?" Virgil could only nod. "I love you." Roman could hear how Virgil gasped and shook more but he didn't allow himself to stop. He had to get the words out at least once... to the person this time and without the precursor of violence. "I love you more than anything. And I need you to know just how much I love you... please, listen?" Virgil's eyes narrowed as he heard Roman's heart racing. "I... I-I... Shit ok... um. This really isn't easy for me to say. I only ever said anything this... deep when I was angry and I just unloaded on Lo. But... I need you to know this. I-I need to tell you..." Virgil hugged Roman tighter making the other falter with a small smile. "Ok then. Virgil... You are literally my everything."

"I know... that saying this all now might not mean anything. It won't change how I fucked up. I should've told you right from the start about my hypersexuality. I should've... I-I should've... I should told everything. I'm sorry, Virgil." Roman paused for a second just trying to form his words as he played with Virgil's arm, the smaller curled up around him like a baby koala. "I understand if you can't be with me because of it. I kept something extremely important away from you and then couldn't even tell you I was getting help for it. I let you think I was being unfaithful. I've never been unfaithful to you."

"W-What about Jade?" Roman's eyes snapped up in shock as Virgil's voice hardly even reached his ears. "You came home with her. You weren't exactly quiet. We weren't dating but..."

"I didn't sleep with her, Stormfly. I couldn't... WOULDN'T. I love you." Virgil moved just enough to hide his face as Roman sighed. "Virgil, ever since I met you... no scratch. Ever since I found out about us getting a new roommate. My thoughts had been solely focused on you." Virgil frowned slightly as his grip loosened a bit. "At first it was my hypersexuality. I mean... the new guy was shy and... As much as I fucking hate to say it... I've always had a thing for the shy guys. They're adorable... You're adorable. And then I met you and everything just clicked into place. You weren't just adorable, you were fucking perfect... and all I wanted to do was just hold you and kiss you but I wouldn't let myself. I didn't want my issues. My... hypersexuality to cause you harm so..."

"That's why 'asshole' Roman started showing up?" Roman nodded softly as Virgil slowly pushed away to look him in the eyes. "You said you were pushing me away because of your issues but you never explained what they were."