Addiction~Prinxiety

27

"Good morning, Roman." The older froze up at the sound of his love's voice so early in the morning. Well, it was 9 but Virgil tended to sleep till 12 so... it was early for him.

"Virgil?" Roman looked up to see Virgil standing there with two plates filled with food and his eyes went wide. "Did you make us breakfast?"

"Well, I just thought... You do it all the time, why don't I do something for you for one?"

"Oh, hun. You already do so much for me." Roman hummed as he walked over and gave his boyfriend a soft kiss. "I love you so much."

"I know, Roman." Virgil giggled as he nudged the other away to give him his food. "Now eat."

"Yes, sir." Roman laughed as he sat down with a beaming smile. Virgil took his own food and sat down beside him lost in thought. He really couldn't get that dream out of his head. It was the first time he had ever had a dream like that... or well at least one that caused such a 'reaction' as it did. "What's up, Virgil? You look like you have something on your mind."

"Oh, nothing... just wondering what was in the works for today." Roman paused for a second, face turned in thought before he smiled as he remembered.

"Janus is coming today." Virgil's eyes went wide as Roman flicked his fork a bit gesturing as he spoke. "Remus said he was going out with Logan so once again I was on welcoming duty."

"Oh... Jan's coming today... really?" Roman nodded as Virgil just stared down at his plate.

"What's wrong? You don't look to happy to be seeing him."

"I am. Trust me I am. Jan's a really good friend. I hate that it's been so long... We didn't end on very good terms either but that was only because of Marcos. He didn't want me hanging out with 'unsavory' types and made me end things. Now I know it's just because he was an abusive dick." Roman frowned as he rubbed Virgil's back supportively earning a soft smile. "Don't worry, Ro. I'm ok. He isn't here to hurt me anymore."

"No, and even if he was, I'd beat the shit out of him." Virgil laughed as he leaned against the other. "You're absolutely perfect, Virgil. At least for me... and I hate how he hurt you but... You here with me now and that's all that matters."

"You're just to kind to me, Roman." Virgil let out a soft breath as Roman hugged him close. 

"I love you, Virgil. I only want to treat you the best I can. You deserve nothing but kindness." Roman paused only to drink some water before giving Virgil a soft kiss to his hair. "I only wish there was more I could do to help you work through what that... hellspawn did to you."

"Well..." Virgil tensed as he pushed himself away with a slightly embarrassed look. "Actually, I wanted to bring that up." Roman's eyes flashed as he quickly moved his chair in a way so that he was giving Virgil his full attention. "I was thinking about... us maybe... um... Forget it."

"No, Virgil. It's ok. You can talk to me. I promise." Virgil sighed as he sheepishly glanced up only for Roman to get a supportive and loving look from Roman in return.

"Ok, fine. I was wondering if you wanted to try something with me."

"Of course..." Virgil held his hand up cutting Roman off who frowned in confusion.

"I would wait until you've heard what it is first." 

"Why?" Roman laughed as he brushed Virgil's hair back noticing his anxious expression. "Virgil, whatever it is I'm sure it isn't that..."

"I want to try something in bed." Roman froze up, hand outstretched as his mind pulled him under instantly. So many different things Virgil could have been referencing... So many thoughts and fantasies... It sent him spirally the moment the idea was introduced. Virgil's eyes went wide noticing right away how Roman's eyes dilated and dazed out. "Ro? Hey, are you ok?"

"Uh huh." Roman gulped as he shook himself from his thought, blush painting his face a bright rose red. "Wha... What were you um... th-thinking a-about doing?"

"Well, I was just thinking... you know what it's not important. Don't worry about it. Just forget it..."

"Hey, Virgil. Seriously, It's ok, Love." Virgil frowned as he nodded and took a deep breath. "Now please... tell me."

"When I was with Marcos... he had me doing a lot for him. He was very demanding but... His favorite thing was not when I was... 'servicing' him but when he was... well, um... that's not important. I was just..." Virgil sighed as he looked up just to see Roman still only smiling at him. "I want to change my position." Roman's brow quirked as Virgil shrugged. "I thought if I experienced it with someone I love and trust... but in the position of power I was denied maybe I could stop seeing it as something the harmful."

"You want to try something Marcos did to you... to me?" Virgil curled away from him with a short nod as Roman just smiled sadly. "You're afraid I wouldn't like it?"

"I don't know what I'm afraid of, Roman." Roman nodded as he pulled Virgil in to comfort him. "I just... I want to get closer to you. I want to stop being so afraid but... I know I can't push it so..."

"You're trying to figure out a way to work through it. There's nothing wrong with that. I'd gladly help." Virgil jumped back in shock as Roman just chuckled. "Obviously we'd have to talk through somethings, like limits. I'm entirely sure what it is you want to try but depending on what it is I'm ok with doing it."

"B-But Ro... Are you sure? Marcos he..."

"You're not Marcos, Love." Virgil's eyes shimmered with love as Roman brushed his tears away. "You aren't the same at all. I trust you completely. And I agree... You should get the chance to feel safe doing things like this so... I'm down for whatever. Like I said, we just have to talk about limits." Virgil sighed in relief as Roman smiled at him. "What exactly did you have planned?

"Edging with bondage..." Roman's face went flush as he chocked on air.

"Well, shit."