Vent

Tired

Dear anyone,
       I'm so tired, but I think the correct term to use would be exhausted. I do the same thing, the same daily routine day in and day out. Nothing ever changes. Every morning at 8. I have to wake up to do online classes the exact second I open my eyes. I never get a break in the morning. And half of the time I fall asleep then that gets me in more trouble. But even after that, I don't have anything to do. I just roam around the house for the rest of the day trying to find some entertainment, and every day ends in failure. There's nothing to do anymore, I've beaten every game I have, and I've talked to almost every person I know. It all ends the same, it doesn't change. I'm bored and exhausted. I don't get much sleep at night, because the voices never stop. They get louder at nigh, when the sound of humanity can't block them out. But there's nothing I can do about it. But every day, after many sleepless nights, I still have to wake up at 8 every Monday to Friday with no objections. I basically have no choice in the matter. But in all honesty, I wish I could make it all stop. I hate having to live in this world, I hate everything about it. I'm just so tired, this world isn't a place I want to be. Why does it have to be like this? I just want sleep, I want to sleep and block out everything, I want to sleep to finally feel relaxed. I want to have a dreamless sleep, one that I would never wake up from. The sound of sleeping forever, it sounds like an open invitation. It just sounds so much better that what I've got going on here. All the sleep I could possibly want, it sounds beautiful. But I know it won't happen, not anytime soon sadly. But one can only hope for the best, and one can only hope that something will happen. I'm writing this, and I mean every single word I'm writing. I'm exhausted. I'm so damn tired. I just want to sleep for years, possibly even forever. I want the voices to stop. I want every noise to stop. And I want every emotion to stop. I guess that could be why I love sleep so much, it gets me away for a short period of time. But the worst part about it, is waking up. Some take the beauty of sleep for granted, but they will soon realize that mistake. Life is so exhausting. I just want it all to stop.

           Sincerely, Alexander