Vent

It happened

Dear you,
    I see it finally happened, you found this shitty book. It was bound to happen eventually so I guess there was no avoiding it. You now know how I really feel about all the shit that goes on, and if you choose to continue to read this book you will always know. I'm not sure if you've read the whole book or just some parts, but I think that's why you called me after you read what you did. We were vibin for a while, and I appreciate that. Because before you called me I wasn't feeling very good. I had no energy and I was overall upset. But after you called me I felt so much better. I don't know why, but you just have that effect on me. But overall I'm grateful for that. You eventually had to hang up but I'm happy that we had some time to chill and talk to each other. For the first time in a while I had your attention. Maybe not all of it and maybe not for as long as I hoped. But it was something, and it could have been worse. I know that during the first few minutes of the call that you most likely noticed that I was acting a little off and I was being easily distracted by things around me. That was because every time I'm on the phone with you I get nervous because I don't know what's gonna happen, and plus the fact that I still have feelings for you so "acting natural" isn't really an option. But I'm pretty sure you know by now that I still have feelings for you and that I wish we could get back together. But it's up to you what you wanna do with that information. Weather you chose to act on it and do something or just do nothing is completely up to you. I won't text you about it 24/7 because that's your choice to make. But I'm probably gonna go take a nap now so I'll update again sometime soon.

                                     Sincerely, Alexander