Vent

Emotions

Dear Alexander and reader,
         My emotions are all jumbled up and are changing every second. And that's on being bipolar. But anyhoozy, I'm feeling thousands of emotions all at once. Emotions like depression, confusion, at the moment me and my sister are entertaining each other so I'm kinda ok, and last but not least, that's in my opinion the absolute worst of them all, really really lovesick. Like "too far deep in love to come back out" kinda lovesick. It's so annoying and stressful because I don't know how to handle it or deal with it. Can I please have that neutral feeling back? It's the best feeling I can feel. But let's talk about the other emotions before this turns into some cringy Twilight bullshit. Of course I'm gonna feel some form of sadness because depression sucks the entire worlds ass. But the confusion and things like that comes from me being so indecisive. Life would be so much easier if I wasn't so indecisive. I would be able to solve more than half of my problems that way. But that's just how life is, not everything is gonna be easy or handed to you on a silver platter. I have to work hard to get though this stage of my life to move on to what will hopefully be something better. Life at the moment isn't the easiest, obviously, but I just have to adapt my way of functioning to match the path I've been thrown on this time. I know that once I get the hang of this path I'm gonna be thrown on another one but I'm just gonna have to either adapt or make my own path. We'll just wait and see what happens.

                           Sincerely, your author, Alexander