Vent

Reflection

Dear Alexander,
         Ya know, as I look back on everything that's has happen within this timeframe. I realize how hectic my life is. I guess that happens when you have bipolar depression. But that's a conversation for another day. It's just really crazy to see how fast things can change. Sometimes things change gradually, and other times it can happen in an instant and you don't even see it coming. Another thing I wanna reflect on is a conversation I had with someone yesterday. I was on the phone with my friend wile texting someone and when I was texting this person something was said that I was expecting but it kinda hurt for some reason, at the time I didn't know why. But I asked the friend I was on the phone with. He explained to me that he knows the feeling and explained the feeling to me. I understood what he meant. Throughout the rest of the text conversation I had the friend I was on the phone with to help me because I had a mental breakdown and has no idea what to say or how to respond. He was mostly laughing at me but helped me in the long run. And thanks to him I found out some information that I would have never expected. Those 3 months were the best of your life huh? I could say the same. But if that's the case, why hasn't anything been done about it? We have the chance to bring that back, but somethings stopping it, I'm not sure what it is just yet but hopefully I'll find out sometime soon. But I'm too nervous to ask XD. But it's true, we have the opportunity to being those days back, and I really want too, but there's something stopping that. I don't think either one of us knows what it is but I just hope we can find out soon. While we're on this topic I wanna reflect on something similar. Aka the good days. Those days were honestly the best days of my life too (a song that reminds me of them just started playing, they used to play it all the time and we would vibe together. "Lying is the most fun a girl could have without taking her clothes off" by panic! At the disco) but back on track, those were literally the happiest days of my entire life all because of one person. I could honestly talk about them forever if I was given the chance. But we don't have forever, now do we? But anyhoozy, I really hope we can bring those days back because seeing as we had the best times of or lives during that I want to be like that again. Hopefully we can, it's definitely gonna take time and a lot of courage for me to voice my opinion on this to you, but we'll just see what happens. I gotta head out now, so until next time.
 
                                                Sincerely, Alexander