Vent

Dear best freind pt2

Dear best friend,
          I don't know why it feels like or if your actually pushing me away. But I don't know why it's happening. I genuinely want to know if I did something wrong or if your just tired of me. But whatever the answer may be, I just want to know how much longer this is going to be happening. Because I told you, if you make the same mistake again I won't be in your life much longer. And you told me you were gonna work on it and you wouldn't make the same mistake. But 2 days later and your back to doing the same thing. You don't understand how your actions effect me. Of course you don't, because you don't understand how attached I am to you. We're not gonna go into details about that, but you understand the basic idea of the point I'm trying to get across. I just want to be able to bring the good times back, because throughout the day you seem so uninterested in conversations sometimes and at night you seem like you don't give a single fuck about anything, including hurting my feelings. Like I said, you may not understand the effect this is having on me because it might seem like something small to you, but it's literally eating me alive leaving no way for me to escape. Because I think about you all day, knowing you don't even take a second to think about me. I think about when is the next time I'll be able to talk to you, or call you. I think about the day that you might actually put in the effort. I'll give you the benefit of the doubt and wait some time before making the final decision. But if this keeps up it won't end well for either of us.
 
                                        Sincerely, your friend, Alexander