Vent

Dear best friend

Dear best friend,

       I'm really happy to have you back  in my life, but there's one problem. We aren't as close as we used to be, and i feel like you don't need me anymore. I guess a simple way to explain what i mean is like this, this whole time we have been on our walks to hell and back we always went the same direction so we could always be there when the other needed something. But now i feel like you don't need me anymore, like you already have the entire path directly there and back mapped out, you don't want to go through any other path like we used to, so now here we are, going to the same destination but different paths, because i guess you don't need me anymore. You have an idea and plan in mind, and I'm not gonna be of any use i guess. I feel like i have all right to feel this way. Because granted, you may be in my life again but things have changed. I kinda feel useless, ya know? I feel like i have failed as a best friend because its my job to be there for you when you need help or when you need anything, but i feel like you don't need my help anymore because I'm not gonna be of any use now. I guess the term would be i feel like I'm being pushed away. I wish i wasn't being pushed away, but that's how life is. Things change though, so i just need to get over it and keep moving forward, because i cant stop things from changing, that's just how the world is. But in the end i cant help but wish we could be back on the same paths to hell and back together again, ya know? But that doesn't matter, because i can't stop you from maturing, growing up, and out growing me as a friend. 

                                      Sincerely, Your friend, Alexander