Vent

Won't go away

Dear Alexander,
   It won't go away, will it? It happens every night when I lay down. This feeling, the feeling of something that I can't understand. I don't know what this feeling is or how to describe it, but it won't go away. I guess the best way to explain it is like a longing for something, for what I'm not exactly sure. But the only thing I know is that it only happens at night and never goes away until I finally fall asleep. I have a possible idea as to what it could be about, but I don't wanna assume anything so I'm not gonna say it. But other than that I have no idea what this feeling is or why I'm feeling it. As I said earlier the closest thing I can describe it as, is a longing for something. Maybe even someone, who knows. I know I sure as hell don't know. But it bothers me even more because I can't pinpoint exactly what I'm feeling or why I'm feeling it. I hate when that happens. It makes me stress out trying to figure it out only to result in failure every single time. I genuinely don't even know how to explain what I'm feeling, but another thing I know is that it's not an emotion. It's more of a feeling in my chest that's trying to tell me something, but it seems that I can't understand the message. I'm so confused about this, because it seems to always happen at night after talking to a specific person, we won't mention who they are but I will say that they most likely know who they are by now. Why must these kinds of thing be so complicated and why must these kinds of feelings never go away?

                                    Sincerely, yourself, Alexander