Vent

How long?

Dear past self,
                 It happened again. We let it happen again. We let the little things get to us and we broke down. Past self, please try to break that old habit now. That old habit of letting everything pile up in your mind and letting it become so much to the point where we break down. Because you will have so many people telling you "it gets better" and they tell you to stop. But they don't understand. They don't understand like he did. Please past self, find a better way to to about this. Art might help. I'm not sure. Because I've fallen too far down to change my path now. But maybe you can change direction before you get to this point, and save us both. And people may tell you it gets better. But it just gets harder and harder. We have those moments where we don't feel like complete shit. But those moments don't last long. So, past self, please try to change directions and break those habits.

                                      Sincerely, your future self, Alexander