Vent

Dear past self

Dear past self,
      Feeling neutral is the best feeling we can have. We don't feel any negative emotions. And we don't feel too many happy emotions but that's ok. The only time that happens is when we're talking to him. He makes us happy and know us better than anyone else. We really need him. Speaking of him, we decided to tell him how we feel about him. He didn't reject us but he didn't tell us he feels the same way. But he did tell us something similar to the second one. But that's a conversation for a private situation. But the good thing is that it's April 11th and it's 2AM and we're on the phone with him. He has to do something so he's not at the phone right now, but we're waiting patiently. But until he comes back I'll tell you what's been happening. Lately things have been ok. They haven't been terrible but they get bad sometimes. But that's the good without the bad? That's just how life is and how it's always been. We finally found a new anime to watch though!! So far it's really good, not as good as yuri on ice but it kinda comes close. We finally hit 3090 on TikTok. Hopefully soon we can hit 3.1K. But things like that take time, and we're willing to wait and work hard for it. Another thing I've learned is that when we're sad, it's good to play "hype songs" like Miss Jackson by p!atd or something similar. It fills us with determination and confidence. Oh crap! He's back now so I gotta go. I'll talk to you again soon. Take care of yourself.
                        
                             Sincerely, your future self, Alexander