Once There Was A Twist

MCG 36

CHAPTER 36: COFFEE MAGIC

"Why should I talk to him?" I asked. Parang hindi rin naiintindihan ni Jimma ang sinasabi ko. I've been with her on the phone for almost an hour but all she did was contradict my statement! Gosh!

"Cause the one who forgives first, was the one who loves most. Lower your pride, Han. It will not result to something good, I assure you that!" See? It was not about the pride, it was about what he have done. Siya ang nagkamali, it was his fault why we are being like this, why would I initiate the talk?

Dalawang araw matapos ang away namin ay hindi na muna siya nagparamdam. At kanina, he texted me asking how am I doing. Parang wala lang nangyari 'di ba? Isa pa, why would I forgive him when he can't comprehend what's wrong?

"Hindi nga niya maintindihan kung  bakit ako nagkakaganito. He even got angry because I talked to Fretz, accidentally!" I replied.

"The man was just jealous, Han. Yes, he acted differently but is that enough to complicate things? Maliit lang na mga bagay iyon kung tutuosin," she stated. I don't understand what she was pointing. Hindi ba siya nakikinig sa'kin? Kanina pa ako nagpapaliwanag sa kanya.

"Maliit na bagay? You sounded just like Vaughnn," sabi ko.

"I don't mean it that way, ang pinupunto ko, kumpara sa relasyon n'yo, hindi  mo na dapat hinahayaang magsimula ng lamat ang mga ganitong bagay. Puwedi naman pag-usapan e. Intindihin mo na lang siya," sagot nito. Why? Why me? Hindi ba dapat siya ang umintindu kasi siya may nagawang hindi maganda?

"It was not about who to put the blame, Han. It was about how to fix it. Misunderstandings create a big hole once left unattended. Love is about, who could sacrifice the most. Pero hindi naman 'yon magwo-work kung isa lang ang nagsasakripisyo. It is just like a see saw, we have ups, we have down. One must come down to lift the other, but for you to meet at the middle, you must maintain balance with everything. Kapag napagod ang isa, mawawala ang balanse. It's for you to decide, relasyon mo 'yan. But think deeply, hindi malaki ang problema, pinapalaki n'yo lang."

The call has ended, but I'm still left sitting, with only blinking as an action. Ano ba kasi ang gagawin ko? Should I talk to him? But I'm still. . . angry and frustrated. Should I just let go of it? Then, he might take it for granted at paulit-ulit na lang na gawin.

Aist, I just want to teach him a lesson by prolonging the days of ignoring him.

Napahiga ako na iyon pa rin ang iniisip. Hard to admit, but I do miss him.

Hindi ko alam kung nakatulog ba ako o naka-idlip man lang. It seems like my eyes are closed but my brain was awake. I've checked the time. It's four thirthy in the morning.

I decided to stand up and went out for a jog. Sweating will help me clear my hazy mind. I might also stumble with some answers along the way.

Takbo ako nang takbo hanggang sa makalabas na ako ng lugar namin. I'm planning to grab a coffee after running.

When I felt my feet getting a little bit tired, I stopped and stayed standing for a while. Huminga ako ng ilang beses at tatakbo na sana ulit nang mapansin ang coffee shop sa gilid.

Oh? I think this one was new. Without further thinking, naglakad ako patungo roon. I crossed the streets and just a few steps away before the door, it swung open and I was appalled upon recognizing the man whom I crashed into.

Nagtagpo ang tingin namin at bahagya pa siyang napaatras. He didn't expect seeing me as well. We remained like that for a moment or two. Mukhang wala sa amin ang gustong maunang magsalita.