Once There Was A Twist

MCG 46

CHAPTER 46: THE GREAT PLAN

"YOU absolutely look like a mess," Natasha remarked. Hindi ko  alam kung bakit ako pinapunta ni Fretz sa isang restaurant para makipagkita pero wala naman siya.

Instead, he sent his  cousin. Alam naman niya na hindi kami magkasundo ng babaeng ito.

"Why did you meet me?" I asked. Wala ako sa mood magpaikot-ikot. Pagod ang utak at katawan ko. Halos dalawang linggo na akong walang tulog ka-iisip sa kalagayan ni Vaughnn. Other than that, I keep on blaming myself cause I was worthy of it. It was me who forced him. Takot siya sa sinulid pero pinilit ko pa rin siya.

"I did this for Vaughnn and Fretz. Gusto kang makita ni Vaughnn, pero sabi ng nanay niya, hindi ka na raw dumadalaw," mataray niyang sagot. She didn't change. She was still as bitchy as the first time I've met her. And her voice remains annoying. Sabi nga ni Fretz, spoiled kasi. Pero hindi na mahalaga ang paraan ng pananalita niya. What's important was, she has news about Vaughnn.

"Okey lang ba siya?" My voice suddenly trailed off, as much as I want to act normal, my body reacted otherwise. Napaangat ako ng tingin para pigilan ang luha ko.

"Gosh! I never liked these things. Bakit ba ako nadamay dito? I was just visiting him. He is fine for now. May mga schedule na siya, for his treatment. Still, he is looking for you," she said, rolling her eyes at me. Masaya ako sa narinig. Kahit papaano ay alam ko ang kalagayan niya. All I can do was pray for him. Wala akong pera at kahit suportahan siya ay hindi ko magawa. Hindi ko siya mapuntahan. A tear escaped from my eyes and I immediately wiped it away. He has acute leukemia.

Hindi yata maubos-ubos ang luha ko. Mas lalo lang ding lumalala ang sakit habang lumilipas ang araw.

"Aren't you gonna say anything?" she asked. Medyo malumanay na ang boses niya ngayon. I shook my head no. Wala akong karapatan at siguro, dapat lang na hindi ko siya makita. A punishment suited for me. I should suffer too.

"What the heck? Aren't you gonna fight for that love of yours? You're such a weakling!" Her voice raised like she was really irritated.

But what is there to fight  for anyway? Seeing Vaughnn alive was enough for me. For him to survive was all I will ever asked for. Kahit hindi na maging kami, kahit paghiwalayin pa kami. I will gladly accept that. Basta mabuhay lang siya.

"If I know that you are like that at the first place I should have never gave up on Vaughnn."

Yeah. I wish too. Sana nga hindi na lang naging kami. Siguro, masaya siya ngayon kung saan. Hindi sa ospital at nagtitiis sa sakit na ako ang dahilan. Sana. . . sana puwedi kong ibalik ang lahat.

"But then, he was never mine at the first place," bawi niya sa huli. Ngumiti ako nang bahagya sa sinabi niya at nakita ang pag-angat ng kanyang bibig.

"Just consider that in his situation, no news is good news," dagdag pa niya. Siguro nga pero hindi ko maiwasang mag-alala. Sa totoo lang, kahit kumbinsihin ko ang sarili na dapat hindi ko lapitan si Vaughnn, na dapat tiisin ko ang lahat dahil ako naman ang dahilan, nangingibabaw pa rin ang pangungulila at kagustuhang makita at alagaan ko siya.

"I have no choice but to befriend you as requested by my cousin and as a token of my love for Vaughnn." She extended her hand  for a handshake and I accepted it. I never thought before that a conversation like this will ever happen to us two. Seems like the universe was full of suprises.

"So, as I was saying, kailangan kang makita ni Vaughnn. It will do good for him. Mas lalo lang siyang manghihina kung hindi ka niya nakikita," aniya. If only that was easy, then maybe, I am not here but by his side. I went to see Tita Hera a couple of times but I'd get the same treatment. Sinubukan ko ring pumunta sa room niya pero hinarang ako ng dalawang guwardiyang nakatayo sa pintuan. I can't come any closer to him no matter how I beg for it.