Once There Was A Twist

MCG 47

CHAPTER 47: HIS SMILES

HAVING someone was like keeping a tiny fire inside your heart, it yields a tender heat.

My eyes found its way to his and the orbs, profound with affection has lured me into abysmal reflection.  Medyo lumiit nang konti ang katawan niya but other than that, he was still handsome.

Hence, had he not move, I'd remain like that for I don't know how long. I smiled, wearily. Organizing my thoughts became unnerving, felt all words are unbecoming.

I heard Lance locking the door. Matapos no'n ay tumungo siya sa tabi ko.

"We'll leave you two," aniya.

"What? Where are we going then?" reklamo ni Natasha. Kahit hindi ko siya tingnan ay alam kung magkasalubong na naman ang mga kilay nito.

Lance didn't answer, he just hauled her despite of Natasha's complain. They went out of the door beside the full length glass window.

That was the fire exit. Okey lang naman dahil nasa second floor lang ang kuwarto ni Vaughnn.

Binalik ko ang tingin sa kanya.

I sat on his bed, parsed his whole being as if it's my last. I've missed him so much.

"How have you been?" I asked gently. Pinigilan kong maiyak sa sitwasyon niya. Seeing him like this pains me more. If only we could trade place, I would gladly do so. Sana ako na lang ang naghihirap ngayon. 'Wag lang siya.

"Lately, been feeling so bad but now you're here, I think I'm beggining to feel better," sagot niya. Sumilay ang mga ngiti sa kanyang labi. How could he say that? He should be blaming me. Ako ang may kasalanan.

"I'm sorry." I sobbed. Hindi ko na talaga mapigilan ang mga luha ko. Nag-uunahan silang lumabas sa mga mata ko at hindi ko na masyadong makita ang hitsura ni Vaughnn.

Yumuko  ako para punasan ang mga ito pero inangat niya ang mukha ko.

"Han, please, 'wag mong sisihin ang sarili mo. Walang may gustong mangyari ito. Don't cry, mas nasasaktan ako kapag nagkakaganyan ka. Gagaling ako, 'wag kang mag-alala."

Regardless of his attempt to cheer, I ended up commiserating over his situation. I wept more. I blame myself for this, it was because of my ignorance and lunacy!

"Hey, stop it,please," he pleaded. Naramdaman ko ang pagyakap niya sa akin. His warm body comforted my dying soul. I hugged him even more.

This man, he was my life. Siya ang naging ilaw sa madilim kong mundo. Once, I never knew how to love and be loved but he came. He added vibrance to my boring world.

My routine was always the same, my day ending remains constant, but because of him, every second became exhilarative.

Unexpected things happen.

Mornings were full of anticipation, I feel the thrills in my viens.

I've known the difference between today and tomorrow. Dahil hindi na nga paulit-ulit ang pangyayari sa buhay ko simula nang dumating siya.

He became the variable. Hindi na puro trabaho ang pumapasok sa utak ko. I begun to give account to better things like friendship.

I opened up to some people and even created bonds.

It was all because of him. Marami akong natutunan. I owe it to him.

Kaya, hindi ko kayang mawala siya sa ganitong paraan. Hindi ko pa nababayaran ang mga utang ko sa kanya.