Zachary's Birthday Wish
Angiela's POV
For the first time since that incident 5 years ago, i never felt this good. I mean, kahit papaano nabawasan ang tinik sa dibdib ko.
Even though the pain is still there. Leaving a scar on my chest and knowing that no one can ever remove it is making me worry.
Bakit ganun? Kahit anong pilit kong kalimutan ang nakaraam, hindi ko parin kaya? It's been 4 years! Almost 5 freaking years!
Maybe this is right. Maybe getting my revenge would satisfy me and lessen the pain I'm feeling every single day.
"Angiela.." It's Shin. I look at him. We're in the car at nasa labas na kami ng coffee shop. I can see Briana walking out the coffee shop, unconsciously. Maliliit na hakbang lang ang ginawa nito that's why i can see her from the car.
"Are you sure about this?" I look at him the moment he said that.
"Shin, This is the only way." I look straight to the road, "besides, nasimulan na natin."
"Angiela, paano pag nalaman to nila lola at lolo? and worse paano pag nalaman ito ng pamangkin ko? ng anak mo?" Napapikit ako.
"Paano kung malaman nga? What's your point saying this?"
He sign, "Angiela, i think we should stop.." I didn't let him finish his words.
"Stop? Damn it!" My eyes start to water. "Alam mo ba yang pinagsasabi mo ha Shin?!" He tried to touch me but i slap his hand away. Mawawalan na ba ako ng karamay? Pati ba siya hindi ako kakampihan? Natatakot ako. Ayoko na!
"Shin kasi hindi ikaw yung nasa kalagayan ko eh.." I start to cry remembering what happen in the past. "Hindi ikaw yung pinahirapan, pinagmukhang kawawa, pinagtulakan, sinaktan, binaboy at ginawang hayop!" Humagulgol na ako sa harapan niya. Ayoko na! Lagi na lang ba ako ang masasaktan? Ayoko na! Sawang sawa na ako!
"Tanggap ko.. Tinanggap ko lahat ng yun, Shin.. Pero ang hindi ko tanggap ay kung bakit pati ang anak ko ipagtabuyan nila na parang hindi tao! Alam mo kung gaano kasakit yun sa isang ina? Hindi, shin! Kasi nga hindi ikaw ang nasakalagayan ko! Naiintindihan mo?! Hindi ikaw kaya madali lang sayong sabihin na itigil na ang lahat ng ito!" Humagulgol ako sa unahan niya. I wipe my tears but its useless, nahuhulog parin yung mga luha ko.
He hugged me, "Tahan na Angie.. Tahan na.. Sorry.." He whisper to my ears. Somehow, nararamdaman ko ang pagiging pinsan niya.
"Okay, we'll continue the plan. Wag ka ng umiyak.."
**
I smile when i saw my Zach answering some math problems on the black board. Nandito ako sa school niya para sana sunduin siya. I miss him already! He's my medicine and pain reliever.
"Very good Zach!" Right after the teacher said it, the bell ring. They bid goodbye to their teachers then the kids were leaving the room, running.
Sinilip ko si zach, he was arranging his things. Lumapit ako sakanya, sa likod niya.
"Ang good boy naman pala ng anak ko eh." I said smiling dahilan para mapatingin siya saakin. His eyes widened and happiness were all over his face.
"Mommy!" He hugged me and i tighten the hug. "I miss you mom!"
"and i miss my baby too!" I broke the hug and look at him, "How was school, sweetie?" I said as i kiss him in the forehead.
He smile showing his cute dimple, "Its good mom! I already said sorry to Ralp. He's my friend now!" He said excitedly. "I'm good boy again!" I laugh when he said that.
"That's good! at dahil nag sorry na ang baby ko, we are going to eat outside!" I said excitedly to him. His eyes sparked with excitement.
"Really, mom?! Yes!" He start jumping and god, i wish he was this happy all the time. My heart melt with happiness when he hugged and kiss me again and again.
"I love you so much, mom!"
I kiss his nose, "and i love you too, sweetie."
**
"May i have this dance?" I smile, almost laughing when zach said that to me while his hands are waiting for my hands.
Oh my zach..
"Of course young man." I said smiling. Like i promise to him, dinala ko siya sa isang mamahaling restaurant. He loves the food here because his tito shin was the head Chef and he loves shin's cook so much.
Natatawa na lang ako sa ayos namin ngayon ni zach, he's too short that's why i carry him.
He pouted, "I wish i was tall."
I smile when he said that, "Someday you will, sweetie. Baka nga mas matangkad ka pa kay mommy eh."
He smile, "Why are you so sure mom that i'll be tall someday? Is dad, tall?"
I look at him. Guilt and sympathy was written all over my face.
Zach look at me, "Are you okay, mom?"
I shook my head, "I'm fine, sweetie." I smile and answer him. "Yes, your dad was tall. Sooo tall!" I try to make him smile.
"How tall?"
"Taller than mommy."
"Wow!" He said happily like he is imagining something, "Did you dance with dad?! I bet you did!" He seems so happy while mentioning his dad. But your dad betrayed you, sweetie and i won't say a word that would hurt you. Not a word.
**
"Mommy, Where are you going ." Zach stopped eating.
"I'll just use the restroom, sweetie. Stay right here, okay? I'll be back." He nodded as he continue eating.
Agad naman akong pumunta sa cr. Nakasalubong ko pa si Shin.
"Shin, check out Zach for me please? I'll just use the restroom." He said okay and left.
I look at myself at the mirror after i use the toilet. I washed my hand and went back to our table. Palapit na sana ako when i overheard there conversation.
"Tito Shin, My birthday is approaching and i think mom didn't notice it." He said while eating his spaghetti, frowning.
"What are you saying? Your mom loves you so much to forget that. Stop worrying about your birthday, okay? You know your mom. She loves surprise." Shin said.
"So what's your birthday wish, Zachy?" Said Shin. Papalapit na sana ako but his answer stops me.
Matagal bago ito sumagot.
"My dad." He smile, "I wish i can see my dad." He said pouting that made me want to cry. I bit my lip to stop myself from crying when they notice me.
I smile at them. Tumayo si shin at nagpaalam na saakin, meron pa kasi siyang gagawin.
"Did you hear it?" Shin whisper. I nooded.
The moment i sit down, my eyes search around the restaurant. I can smell something familiar.
"Mom, I'm full." I look at zach. He were rubbing his tummy.
"Come here." I wiped his mouth when i sense something familiar.
I looked around the restaurant when my eyes stopped at the door entrance.
My eyes widened on shock. My heart starts to beat fast.
What is he doing here? Of all place, why here? Of all date, why today? Of all years, why now?
My eyes start to panic when he caught me looking at him but in a second i change it into cold stare.
"Jasper." I whisper angrily almost to myself.
**
