No Looking Back

Chapter 20

luke is perfection okay, he can be doing anything and still look perfect agh
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Luke's POV:
"When do you get to leave?" I ask Mackenzie, I really want her to be released. It would suck to spend New Years here or New Years Eve or just be here in general. Hospitals suck. I can't even stand being here, I wanted to go home right as soon as I was released but I wanted to see Mackenzie, she's worth being in a hospital for. Not in that way, like she's worth visiting.
"Whenever I want to," Mackenzie says giggling, "Whenever I feel strong enough to go home, I think I'm okay now. They've been drugging me up all day, one more day can't hurt." One more day is going to be hell, I don't know how she can stand it. Hospitals are depressing to me, they stink with death and lost hopes..
"So, you're going to stay another night?" I ask hoping she says no.
"Yeah," not exactly the answer I wanted but it's for her own good, "Don't worry about me Luke, I'll be okay, just not today." She starts laughing and so do I, "Hey that rhymed!" She says excitedly. I can't help but laugh even more, she's such a dork.
"I'm going to miss you." Even though it's only for one night but I already want to leave, I know I can stay longer but I want to get out of the hospital, it's giving me the creeps.
"..Luke it's not even late yet.." She says with sadness in her voice.
"Oh yeah! Oops I thought it was." I lie.
"Hey Calum just texted us saying to meet him at Starbucks, do you want to come Luke?" Ashton says to me as Michael is putting on his black jacket. I look over at Mackenzie before answering, "No thanks. I'll stay with Mackenzie." Ashton just nods and leaves without saying goodbye. I'm facing my fear of hospitals, I've never really stayed in a hospital to visit someone in a long long time. The last person I visited was Aleisha. She didn't really die instantly, I just like telling people and myself that because she was rushed to the hospital and I didn't want to come see her because of my fear.. when I finally came, she was gone. I missed my chance to say goodbye. I'm such an ass. I didn't deserve her, I loved her but I didn't want to go to the hospital. That's another reason why I hate coming to hospitals now.. they ruin your life. Scar you for life.. I want to make a difference now and I will by staying with Mackenzie. I feel like this is a good thing to do. "Luke you didn't have to stay." Mackenzie says interrupting my visit to the past.
"I wanted to." I reassure her by flashing a big smile at her and hug her.
"Do you want to stay overnight? I don't want to be alone."
I gulp before answering, "Yeah." I'm really doing this. I'm facing my fear for her. By her I mean both Mackenzie and Aleisha. Aleisha would have wanted this for me, she left me a message with the nurse before she passed. It was a handwritten note, I still have it but I've never read it. I don't think I have the guts to. I've only read the intro. Luke, hi baby. I love you so much, don't you ever forget that. I love you and I want you to be happy so please don't let this get to you, don't blame yourself. This isn't your fault. Nothing is your fault. I love you Lukey Pooki. You deserve much better than me, I hope you find someone else and love them. Move on... I stopped reading it there because I know that the rest would get me in tears, my eyes were tearing up at the Lukey Pooki part, she was the only one to call me that. I never want anyone to call me that ever again. I want to move on but everything reminds me of her.. "Do you want to watch some movies Luke?"
"Of course." I need something to distract me from Aleisha. I don't want to ever think of her again. I think today is going to be the day I decide to let her go. If you love something set it free, if it comes back its yours if it doesn't, it never was. Maybe if I set her free she'll come back. She'll live again. I hope so. For now I'll just stop thinking about her. "Can we watch Frozen?" I ask hoping she likes that movie.
"Yes!Yes!YESS!!!" She says jumping up and down. Mackenzie is really beautiful, she has the same hair color as Aleisha, blonde. But Aleisha's wasn't as long as Mackenzie's. They also have the same eye color. Bright Blue. Maybe Aleisha is still here, but through Mackenzie. I smile and decide that Aleisha is still here but through Mackenzie, maybe Aleisha sent Mackenzie my way. Mackenzie is an angel, after all not all angels have wings.
"Do you like that movie?" I ask Mackenzie.
"No! I love it." She tells me as her eyes light up, her eyes light up when she talks about the things she loves, I've noticed.
"Me too." I smile at her and she scoots over on her bed and she pats at the spot next to her motioning for me to join her, so I do.

HEY GUYS OKAY THIS WAS JUST A BACKGROUND CHAPTER ON LUKE AND HOW MUCH HE LOVES ALEISHA.