No Looking Back

Chapter 41

Mackenzie's POV:
"Calum that was great." I say running my finger down his chest.
"I know. That was great!" Calum says grinning at me. I snuggle my head in his chest.
"I love you Calum." and I really do. "I've never felt this way before.."
"What way?" Calum sits up, "Mackenzie, you're probably just saying this because it was your first time."
"I don't even remember how we got in bed in the first place Calum, obviously we were drunk, but I hear drunk people always say the truth and do the truth." I look him in the eyes, "So I do love you Calum Hood, if I didn't I wouldn't have gotten in bed with you."
"Mackenzie..there's something I must confess." Calum says with a serious face.
"What is it?" I ask confused.
"Mac, you didn't want to get into bed with me.."
"What do you mean?"
"Mackenzie, look around! This ain't our home. It's not mine and it sure ain't yours.."
"I didn't even notice..I was probably too focused on you Calum," I say and smile at him, "Where are we?"
"Jack's house."
"Who's Jack?"
"You see!" Calum raises his voice a bit, "You don't remember anything from last night Mackenzie! You don't love me! You never will..you have Luke! You're dating Luke! You didn't want to get in bed with me last night because of Luke! Mackenzie.."
"Calum..that's not true.." I say getting kind of emotional, "I do love you! I don't love Luke!"
"Mackenzie, just cause we had sex doesn't mean it's love. Lot's of people have sex and they don't feel anything for eachother. It's called hooking up."
"..I know what hooking up is. You would never do that to me..would you?"
"No!" He takes a deep breath, "Please don't hate me Mac.."
"Spill." I say seriously.
"Last night after the pub we came to Jack's house, you were wasted, I was wasted. We did drugs. To be honest, you did most of them. I acted like I did some but I didn't. I wanted you to be so fucked up so I could take advantage of you.. and I did." I feel my eyes getting watery, "I'm so sorry Mackenzie. I took away the one piece of innocence you can never get back. I'm so sorry."
"..Cal.." I throw my arms around him and start crying into his shoulder.
"You don't hate me do you?" Calum sighs, "Mackenzie, if I were you I would hate me!"
"But Cal..you can't hate someone you love!"
"Mackenzie! You don't love me!"
"Yes I do!" I say as I kiss him, Luke being the last thing on my mind.
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"Where's the car?" I ask as I gather up my clothes and brush my hair.
"We left it at the pub. We'll walk there." Calum says as he's putting on his pants, "This isn't right. I love you Mackenzie, but you're with Luke."
"I don't love Luke.." I say my voice trailing off.
"Then why are you with him?" Calum's voice trails with jealousy and anger.
"..I don't want to hurt him." I say before realizing that I already did, "It's too late for that, unless if we keep it a secret from him." I smirk looking over at Calum.
"Our dirty little secret." Calum smirks back.
"I like the sound of that. Our." I grin at him as we exit Jack's house and make our way over to the pub.
"Fuck." Calum mutters and grabs my wrist and pulls me behind a car.
"Woah Cal, can't get enough of me?" I joke and then I look at him and realize he's worried, "Calum what's wrong?" I ask now seriously.
"Luke's there."
"Shit." I start cursing under my breath and start to freak out, "He doesn't know anything though.." I check my phone which Jack had, he had both our phones and we got them before we left. I check the missed calls all from Luke. "Luke's called me like a million times."
"Same." Calum says as he's scrolling through his phone. "Text him, tell him you're home or something so he can leave."
"Okay." I go to my messages and I realize there was a recent message sent and I read it. It's a picture. Calum and I in bed.
"Kenzie you alright?" Calum asks me as I realize I'm crying.
"That bitch." I say grinding my teeth. I'm pissed. I'm sad. I'm relieved. So many fucking emotions going through me right now.
"Who?" Calum asks turning to face me.
"Jack." I say and look over at Cal who has a look of confusion on his face, "He texted Luke."
"So?" Calum asks not understanding what the big deal is, I show him the text and now he's the one cursing under his breath. "Well we're screwed." He stops cursing and is quiet for a long time, unusually quiet.
"Calum?" I ask him, trying to get him to talk, "Calum.."
"Sorry I was just thinking." He says with a grin.
"About?" I ask grinning back, Calum always knows the perfect solutions. It's great!
"I was just thinking that if I showed up with a plane ticket," He says as he grins even harder, "Would you wanna run away too?" He leans in and kisses me, "Cause all I really want is you."
"What the fuck." I pull away quickly from Calum recognizing that voice. Luke.