Phan One Shots

Because I Love You

Dan's POV

I grab my clothes, shoving them into my suitcase along with my toothbrush, laptop and chargers. I take the picture of Phil and I from a couple years ago and place it on my pillow with the note I have written.

I have loved Phil more than just as a friend ever since I met him in real life five years ago. Recently, I began dropping hints, sensing he felt the same and I was so certain he did until he told me he was going on a date with someone else. I can't watch him fall in love with someone else when I love him with all my heart.

The apartment is quiet, as Phil is out at the shops, leaving me enough time to pack and leave before he returns and can try to stop me; if he even would try to, that is. I make my way out of my room and pick my keys up from the little table by the door when I hear the of jangling keys in the door. I stare at it like a deer caught in headlights, as it opens, revealing Phil with quite a few Tesco bags.

He smiles at me and places down the bag, then notices the suitcase in my clutches and frowns, "Where are you going? I didn't think you were going on holiday for a couple months."

"I'm leaving."

"Leaving, why?"

"It's best for both of us if I just leave," I sigh.

"Stop being ridiculous, Dan and put your suitcase back. I've got stir fry for dinner, which I know is your favourite," he says and goes to grab my suitcase, but I pull it away. "Dan for god sake."

"I'm being serious, Phil. I'm leaving, for good," I try to sound convincing, but now I'm starting to wonder if this is the best decision, especially when his eyes gloss over.

"Why? What have I done?" I can hear the sadness in his tone.

"I can't watch you fall in love with someone else."

His mouth gapes, "Are you being serious? You're really that selfish that you can't let your best friend have a boyfriend."

"Selfish?" I exclaim. "I have loved you since day one like no other, I have been by your side every step of the way and you are calling me selfish. Get out of your own arse, Phil and see what is really happening here!"

"Well tell me what is happening here, because I'm afraid I have no idea why you have any reason to leave. We have a good life together, here in this apartment full of memories."

"That's exactly why, Phil. There are too many memories here and I can't sit in them any longer knowing you're going out seeing another guy, doing the things I want to be doing with you. I'm leaving, because I - I," I huff and look down at the ground, the tears welling in my eyes. "I love you," I mumble.

"What?"

"I fucking love you," I say louder and lift my head. "That's why I have to leave, because you clearly don't feel the same, but instead of just telling me to my face after I've made it quite clear that I like you, you go and get yourself a little date to what? Rub it in my face I suppose."

"You think that lowly of me?" he says quietly.

"I don't know what to think anymore."

Phil falls against the wall, looking defeated. His glossy eyes meet mine and no matter how hard I try to keep my tears in, they won't stay. Am I really going to leave all of these years of friendship behind? Am I going to leave Phil here alone to cry? Can I do that?

"You can't expect me to stand around and watch you fall in love with someone when I know I could love you better," I say.

"I didn't know that you felt that way, Dan," Phil sighs.