Damsel in Disguise

~~~ Chapter 45 ~~~

FOURTY FIVE

The warm breeze of Philippines calmed my skin but not my heart. It keeps beating and beating as if it left something here and has to be taken back. But I'm sorry, Heart. There's no guarantee on that.

Binigyan kami ng ilang araw para libutin ang kagandahan ng Pilipinas. Cebu, Davao, Palawan, at Baguio. Minabilis lamang na'min 'yon para sa nalalapit na concert.

Subalit kahit saang banda ata kami magpunta, basta sa Pilipinas, hindi mapakali ang utak ko. I tried to act normal for years. How can a day ruin it? How can a day make past feel so fresh? How can a day re-open something's left? How can a day... Bring back the feeling that was never left?

I can't even barely enjoy those beautiful places we've been when there are several pictures always running back onto my mind.

"Am I the only one being haunted?" Tanong ni Flynn. Belle slightly shook her head.

"Crystal clear water, white sand, dancing coconut trees, bright sky, marching clouds, flying birds... And us," Bulong ni Belle. I closed my eyes then a sudden scenery already flashed in my eyes. I completely knew whom my heart belongs to. I just don't want to admit it. Not that fast. Especially when you knew they were just playing a dangerous game.

Trix fixed little things bago dumating ang concert. It was fun to be back in here and be with our Filipino fans. I loved how they cheer for my name when nobody else did before. I guess, I'm a bit thankful that the world has changed a little. It opened someone's eye to see what truth is. Until that one told everyone about it. Not all believed, but most did. And so before, my voice was treated ugly, now, most people want it. Now, most people liked me. However, I'm not going to change myself for that. I'm going to stay on who really I am, I'm going to stay on where I started.

Magtatapos na ang concert ngunit may mga pamilyar akong mga mukha na namataan. Sandali akong mapatigil sa pagkanta, good thing my friends were singing too and doesn't matter when I stop because this is a concert anyway.

But I didn't mind that. They... Are here?

Pinilig ko ang ulo ko at muling kumanta. Iniwas ko ang tingin ko dahil baka namamalik mata lamang ako. Nagbow kami matapos ang kanta at nagpasalamat sa mga lahat ng nanood, we even took some photos with them. Muli kong binalik ang tingin doon at nakitang wala sila.

I felt relieved... And hurt.

I chose to not tell them what I saw because I'm probably just hallucinating or they just look alike or whatever. I don't have to care.

Trix stayed in the Philippines. While some of us flew back into South Korea to fix some things, including me. Nagpaalam ako kina Mommy na magpapabalik-balik ako para samahan sina Trix. Gusto nilang dito na lamang ako manatili ngunit hindi ko pwedeng iwan na lamang sila.

Pasukan na sa Pilipinas at bakasyon pa sa South Korea. Nag-aaral ako ng law kaya naman napatagal pa ang pag-aaral ko. Belle isn't finished yet, too. She chose to be psychologist and took a master's degree kaya nag-aaral pa rin ito. Ngunit dahil tulad ko, bakasyon pa rin niya, binilinan siya ng kanyang mga magulang na bantayan muna ang school, together with us.

I felt more... Nervous. Doon pa rin ba sila nag-aaral? Are we going to see each other? Ano ang inaakto ko? O mas mainam, niya? Does he even knew the truth? Siguro ay hindi pa. Siguro ay dapat umakto akong walang nangyari.