An Apple A Day(Trixya)

Love vs. Lust

Trixie sat with her legs crossed, grading tests. She had been here for what felt like forever. Trixie sighed as she began to mindlessly doodle on a blank sheet of paper. She was bored but knew that she had to have these tests handed out tomorrow so her students could study for their midterms. "Knock, knock." Trixie looked up to see Raven, peeking her head in the door.

"Hey."

"Oh, well that was dry."

"Sorry."

"What's wrong? You look dead."

"Raven, can I ask you a question?"

"Of course girl. What is it?" Raven sat on the end of Trixie's desk, listening.

"I think I like someone but they are younger than me."

"Hmm, we've all been there."

"I don't know what to do?"

"What do you mean?"

"They are younger than me Raven."

"So? Life doesn't last forever girl. Live like it."

"Okay but what could come from that? Marriage?"

"Mama, why are you thinking that far ahead? Just live for the moment now, okay? Don't stress yourself out, you stress case." Trixie sighed and leaned back in her chair. "Just enjoy it okay? However long it lasts. Nothing like a young girl or guy to blow your back out."

"Thanks Raven."

"Anytime." Raven smiled as she tapped Trixie's arm.

After a few more hours, Trixie was finally home. She had finished with the tests and even wrote out new lesson plans for tomorrow. Trixie sat on her sofa after her shower, trying to relax. She couldn't though. Her mind was too busy. Too busy thinking about Katya. Katya was all Trixie thought about. Her smile, her laugh, her voice, her body, the way she sounded when Trixie touched her in the right spot. If Trixie wasn't careful, she could quickly become addicted to Katya, if she wasn't already. Trixie took a sip of her wine, thinking about today. She thought about the meetings she had and the different stupid questions that the students asked. But in the back of her mind was one thing, Violet with her hand on Katya's cheek. Violet was so close to Katya, staring into her eyes like a hungry pack animal. Katya was nothing more than a game to Violet, another notch in her belt. It lit a fire in Trixie, but what fueled that fire was that fact that Katya wouldn't tell her what Violet wanted. Trixie had an idea but she could be wrong. Maybe it was nothing..yeah and maybe pigs could fly. Trixie shook her head. What was she doing? Katya wasn't hers, she probably never would be. Katya would most likely finish high school and never see Trixie again. It was a thought that hurt but it was the truth. Trixie and Katya weren't in a relationship. They were teacher and student with a few benefits on the side. Trixie didn't even plan on fucking Katya, but she couldn't help it. That fire in her stomach pushed her. Trixie sat down her glass of wine and laid back on the sofa. Her thoughts soon drifted. Traveling to a few hours ago, to the time spent in her class when she was making Katya squirm with pleasure. Trixie bit her lip as she thought about it all. The sounds that Katya made, the faces she made, the way she held onto Trixie. It all made Trixie smile, with a cocky knowing smile. Those thoughts were pushed away when Trixie's phone began to ring. She picked it up with a chuckle. "Hello Katya."

"Hey Trixie."

"It is 2am, why are you up? And most importantly, why are you calling me?"

"Because I can't sleep."

"Why?"

"I slept when I got home. I was tired."

"Hmph, I wonder why."

"Shut up."

"How about you make me baby?"

"I- don't start that. Anyway, what are you doing?"

"Laying on the sofa, just relaxing."

"That sounds nice."

"Would be nicer if you were here." Did Trixie actually say that? To Katya? What was she doing?

"I think so too." Katya giggled as she sat up in her bed. She was restless and kinda happy to hear that Trixie was too. "Trixie, may I ask you a question?"

"Go for it."

"What is going on between us?"

"You want a honest answer?"

"Yeah."

"I don't really know sugar."

"Good to know I'm not the only one confused."

"Heh, you're right about that."

"Another question."

"Okay, shoot."

"What do you want to be happening between us?"

"That is a good question. Hmm, well I enjoy the time I spend with you. Both sexual and nonsexual, but I don't think that is an answer. Truth be told, I don't know what I want." Katya hummed in response as she let Trixie's words sink in. Trixie felt like saying you was too much. "What about you?"

"I would think the simple answer is true. I want to see what happens between us. But I have to know, when I graduate..could there maybe be a chance that we keep in touch?" Katya felt her throat tighten after asking that question. The question that had been on her mind for a few weeks now, maybe more. She bit the inside of her cheek as she listened to Trixie's soft breathing, waiting for an answer.

"Yes, I would think so." Katya smiled softly, feeling a bit more relaxed.

"Oh, I have something to tell you."

"Okay, what is it love?"

"You took my v-card."

"Wait, wait..what?"

"My virginity Trixie."

"Me?"

"Yes?"

"Took your-"

"Yes." Katya chuckled as she listened to Trixie.

"Are you serious?"

"Yep, I sure am."

"Well then."

"You sound so shocked."

"Well, maybe I am."

"No need for the sass."

"Oh, shut up."

"Trixie?"

"Yeah?"

"Love or lust?

"Huh?"

"Which do you prefer? Love or lust?"

"Why?"

"Just a question."

"A lot of questions tonight. Hmm but I would have to go with love."

"Why?"

"Well, I've mistaken lust for love many times and I just want the chance to know what love feels like. For the longest time, I thought my ex looked at me with love in her eyes but it was never that. It was just lust. Both of them cause a burning fire, a hot passion. They don't treat you the same though. That fire from lust can burn both parties if it isn't mutual lust, and love can do the same exact thing. It has to be mutual or else you can be left broken."

"So you loved your ex but she didn't feel the same way?"

"That is about it, yeah. I was blinded to the things she did, all because I loved her. I want to love again but I actually want to feel it back, you know?"

"Trixie?"

"Hmm?"

"What if I told you that I want to?"

"Want to what?"

"Love you." Trixie looked down at the paper she was doodling on earlier. On that piece of paper was Katya's name written multiple times with hearts and different things that made Trixie think of Katya. From the color red to the sky itself. Every single thing reminded her of Katya and she had no idea what to do.