We're all sitting waiting for Benji to say something, I'm proper shitting myself now, what if he wants to leave? What the hell do I do then? Nobody does Benjis job better than Benji and he's been with me from the start, now we've finally made it, sold 100,000 copies of our debut album and he's going to leave.
"Are you alright Benji?" Liv asked politely, breaking the silence.
I could tell the rest of the boys were probably overthinking like me and although Benji was the one who called us here, he was just sat in silence as if we weren't there, facing the sea instead of us. Thank god for Liv because the silence probably would've went on for longer if it wasn't for her good nature.
"Me and Liz are finished" His voice is quiet and he still doesn't look at us, my heart sunk to my stomach. "She said she couldn't go the distance anymore and I had to chose her or the band"
Part of me felt guilty that because of our band his relationship has come to an end, especially because him and Liz were definitely end game. The poor boy was clearly devastated, we all stood up and each gave him a hug because he's our brother and we hate seeing him hurting.
"You know if you wanted to stay with Liz we'd understand" says Bob but he just shakes his head.
"There's no way I'd quit, didn't even consider it. This is all I've ever wanted and I've finally got it so I'm not letting it go" A slightly more positive tone appears in his voice. "You'd think she'd be happy for me though? Just get used to it because she loves me like you do with Van, Olivia"
"I know I'd go months with out seeing Van if it meant he was doing what he loves but some girls struggle with long distance Benji, from what I know she's a very affectionate and sensitive person which probably makes it harder for her. Going from seeing someone everyday to once every few weeks isn't easy. It's not your fault though, it's probably just easier for her to just finish things and in the end you'll probably be glad this has happened. There's no point trying to hate her because it's clear you don't but everything happens for a reason and you will have learned something from this."
Olivia is so smart and intelligent when it comes to this, she knows exactly what to say and she says it in such a reassuring way. We would've all just called her a bitch and told Benji to just fuck it but Liv is wiser and she knows better than that. The boys are all stunned by what she says but they all nod their heads in agreement, I start feeling proud of her and I don't know why, proper makes me smile. It's like she's just made an award winning speech.
"Thanks, when you put it like that it's much better." Benji even cracks a smile at what Liv said, in my head I'm like 'that's my girl'. It comes naturally to her as well, she's such a kind hearted person.
"Well said Olivia, well said" Larry holds out his fist for a fist bump, all the lids agree with Larry.
"Well mate, we all appreciate your loyalty to us. There's no way we'd be able to get a Benji Blakeway replacement" I swing an arm round him and give his hair a little ruffle with my hands.
The six of us all sit there chatting till the sun goes down, all having a laugh so Benjis not sat all depressed thinking of Liz. He's probably better without her, as much as I love Liz, it really does take a toll on him but only because he loves her. After a couple hours we all decide to walk Benji home and then we separate off home ourselves although I stay with Liv.
We get to Olivias and I'm not sure whether she wants me to come in or not but she enters her house without saying goodbye so I assume I'm supposed to follow. It was just after midnight so we ended up heading straight to bed, her head rested on my bare chest as I ran my hands through her soft hair.
"I need to tell you something" Liv shot up as soon as I spoke. "We're doing wales and some of the last minute ones in England for the next two weeks and then we're going straight to Europe"
It's something I've needed to tell her for a while but I couldn't, the way she looked all disappointed at me is the reason. That's two months I won't see her and I'm gutted.
"We'll be okay, I'll miss you but I've missed seeing you bounce about to your own music" God knows how she always manages to find the good in a bad situation but it was reassuring knowing that although she'll miss me, she knows we'll be okay.
"I'm a lucky guy" her head falls back down on to my chest, I gently give the top of it a kiss and run my hands through her hair.
This is what I'll miss the most, just her company. The silence we have is never awkward and I'd sit in silence with her for hours if it meant I could just spend time with her.
