All Alone

Chapter 28

Nagising ako nang bahagyang lumubog ang parte niya sa kama. I yawned and covered my mouth with the blanket before looking at him.

"Good morning," he said teasingly because the first time he greeted me earlier, I didn't respond.

"...Good morning," bati ko pabalik at hinaplos ang pisngi niya.

"I brought our breakfast here," nilingon niya iyong side table, "And as you wish, papanoorin natin ngayong umaga 'yung movie."

Tumatango-tango lang ako sa sinasabi niya noong una, pero naalimpungatan ako bigla.

"I can't! May klase nga pala ako!" sabi ko at bumangon na. Hila-hila ko pa ang kumot dahil wala pa rin akong suot.

"It's sunday," he said calmly while looking at me. Humikab siya at kinusot ang mga mata bago humiga ulit.

Napaawang ang bibig ko. "Oh."

Dahan-dahan akong bumalik sa pagkakahiga at tinabihan siya.

Niyakap niya ako kaagad. "Be lazy with me?"

"Okay."

"Hindi ba masakit?" tanong niya nang gumalaw ako para abutin ang cellphone ko sa side table.

"Masakit," sagot ko habang tinitingnan kung may naghahanap o nag-te-tect ba sa akin. "But for ballet, I can endure it."

Ibinaba ko ang cellphone ko nang wala namang nag-text o naghahanap sa akin. He was just staring at me until his eyes softened and leaned in for a kiss.

"Okay, let's eat breakfast while watching the movie."

Tumango ako at tinulungan siya sa paglalagay noong bed table sa kama. He looked at me before playing the movie. May prutas, sandwiches, bacon at itlog siyang niluto. There are lots of it. Especially, the fruits. May nakatusok pa roong toothpick bilang pangkuha. Iyon ang inuunti-unti kong kainin.

I was really confused at the ex-husband. Siya iyong nang-iwan. He is now alone in his old and dusty house. While her ex-wife is now living with her new husband. Happy and has moved on.

Hirap iyong lalaki kasi mag-isa siya. He's losing all the furnitures in his house one by one because he's selling it to have money. Then one day, he discovered that he's sick. Ang una niyang tinawagan ay iyong dati niyang asawa. Sinasabi na mamamatay na siya.

So, she went to him, and took care of him. Even though he left her years ago. He has no other choice, he has no other options. And I just realized how hard it is to be alone. Mahirap talagang tumandang mag-isa.

But I am also confused. Paano kaya nagtatagal ang ibang mga mag-asawa? Karamihan naman kasi, naghihiwalay rin. Kagaya nitong movie. They were together for twenty six years and then he left her because according to him, he just woke up one day and he doesn't love her anymore.

Paano ako makakasiguro na iyong lalaking pipiliin ko ay hindi magigising isang araw na hindi na ako mahal?

Nilunok ko ang kanina ko pang kinakagat na mansanas at ibinaba ang toothpick doon sa platito. Eve gave me my orange juice and accompanied it with bunch of tissues.

"Have..." galing sa juice ko ay tiningnan ko siya. He is playing with my hair and attentively listening to me. "You ever love someone and instantly knew that she's the one you'll spend the rest of your life with?"