KittyHazelnut is Weird

Time is dead & meaning has no meaning.Existence is upside down & I reign supreme

yes I do have an unhealthy obsession with Bill Cipher and what about it huh

I SWEAR TO GOD I AM TWO SECONDS AWAY FROM THROWING MY ANATOMY TEXTBOOKS OUT THE FUCKING WINDOW

I'm trying to do the worksheets from my anatomy lab but I don't actually have a lab this week because only half the class does their lab every week and the other half just watches like 90 minutes worth of videos that I literally absorb nothing from unless I pause them every three seconds and write everything down and then it ends up taking like five hours and it's not fucking worth it so I was like eh whatever I'll just wing it right and it was fine for the first sheet I had to fill out because it's about tissue and surprise that was what we did this week so I know that woah crazy how the lab reinforces what we were learning this week wow I bet that's what the lab is meant for right because that would make sense

LOL NOPE JUST FUCKING KIDDING

because the second sheet is the integumentary system, which is what we're learning next week, so we know literally nothing about it. Now, I know what you're thinking. "But Kitty, just read the textbook!"  Except reading a single chapter in the textbook also takes hours, and none of it makes sense until you watch the hours-long lecture video (that takes hours longer than the hours that are the video because notes) which means that if I want to have any idea what's going on for this part of the lab, I would have to do all of next week's work by Friday at 5. That almost sounds doable, too, unless you actually take this anatomy class because then you have to think about the time I pulled an all-nighter to teach myself chapter 3 and it took ten fucking hours AFTER I had already started it. 

so basically the moral of the story is this class is a fucking joke, I have literally learned nothing, and I'm going to jump off a fucking cliff :)))))