KittyHazelnut is Weird

Life

liberty and the pursuit of happiness. We fought for these ideals, we shouldn't settle for less. These are wise words enterprising 

Okay that's enough Hamilton for one update

I wanna preface this by saying that I did tag Lyra in this but it's to plug her fic and it'll make sense if y'all read that far but no one is obligated to read my randomness and this 100% goes for Lyra and I felt the need to say that early in the thing so she saw it before trapping herself in my rant

So if y'all remember me talking about ballet, that was actually a lot better than my old ballet classes and I love this new teacher. If y'all remember me talking about my lyrical team, I've had one class and I can already tell I'm probably gonna hate it.

So.

That's fun.

In other news, I tried to do a double pirouette for my smol solo in my jazz dance without processing that there's still a smol crack in meh foot bone and that going on releve (so like on my tip toes) is not a good idea so that was the worst turn in turning history. Fortunately all my teachers were fine with me being A Dumb and no one seemed to judge me so even though I can't balance on my right foot to save my life bc I have no ankle strength anymore and if I stand wrong I want to cut my foot off, I'm still lowkey better than most of the kids in my classes because i downgraded myself to be with my friends and they're in the same level as some 10-year-olds. Gotta love it.

Also I started The Office and I'm so confused? Why does everyone on tumblr hate on the Big Bang Theory, which is just a bunch of nerds being nerds, but no one says anything about The Office literally consisting of nothing but offensive jokes? Like it would be fine if they were good jokes but they're just not? Jim, Dwight, and Pam are pretty much the only good parts of the whole show?

Also I'm writing a new fanfic that I posted the idea for on tumblr (gabrielsbackbitches follow me) and here's the copy-and-pasted version

au where Cas has been vessel hopping since Dean was a baby, showing up as various people in his life and looking out for him but making sure not to get too close to him (thus why he has to keep changing vessels — so Dean doesn't get attached, either) and it's all going fine and heaven's pretty happy with him and all but then one day Dean gets into a case that he really can't handle and all of a sudden the local bartender Cas pops in and smites a demon in front of him and Dean's like :0 and Cas has to figure out how to do damage control without telling Dean that he's an angel because obviously Dean's not supposed to know that until he's 30 and he breaks the first seal and heaven won't be happy with him that Cas just totally fucked up

So it's not going exactly like that bc it starts when Dean's 16 and not making friends with bartenders and Cas shows up a few times before he has to really do damage control but basically this is what I've been working on in my notebook in class and I'm really excited to finish it or get close enough to finishing it that it feels worth it to type it up and maybe post here and my new ao3 account (also @KittyHazelnut) so I'm pretty excited about that 

Meanwhile I suggested a fic to Michifers_Kid_Lyra and it's basically a sabriel fic about a serial killer and an fbi agent and you need to go check it out it's called Of Bone and Glass and it's fanfuckingtastic and it's basically how FBI's Most Wanted was supposed to go except so much better and after reading the first chapter I was so inspired that I started writing a similarish version but with a very different take on the idea and it's nowhere near as good but I'm really enjoying writing that one too

And I haven't written much of my existing fics but I've been thinking about Standing Together a lot as I do and I've been kinda putting Dean's background together and like thinking of stories from when he was at college and stuff and they're never gonna make it in the book but there are probably gonna be references to them bc it still happened so I can reference them I guess but it's pretty much how I entertain myself at work between customers at target or when I'm trying to sleep or when my dance teacher's lecturing us because there are 17 people in my class and of course we're not fucking silence (not that I'm bitter) and it's just really fun to think about and I'm almost starting to like Dean and his college friends more than I like Lucifer and that's really saying something because Lucifer is undoubtedly one of the best things to come out of my brain (not that there's much competition tbh)

And yeah that's it that's life