Cliche (Love Series # 1)

s e v e n t e e n

Dislike

(noun)

dis·like\(ˌ)dis-ˈlīk, ˈdis-ˌ\

: a feeling of not liking or approving of something or someone
: something that you do not like, approve of, or enjoy

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I want to unlike him.

I really, really do.

My mood alternates from happiness to sorrow, to annoyance and sereneness, in short; it's all over the place.

It's like he's a raging inferno and I'm a foolish and willing participant, that I'm perfectly fine being burned just to meet him.

Everyday I would feel like I'm really lucky to be friends with him but at the same time, there's this border that I couldn't cross in fear of breaking our only relationship that makes me loathe our present relationship.

I know I'm just his friend but it's really tiring to see me getting overwhelmed all by myself. I always got angry when he's with a other girl but I don't dare get angry and have no say on his life. I'm just his friend and I think that's all I'll ever be.

I hate it, I really do but what can I do? I don't want to be foolish anymore, I still have my friends and my family, I still need to finish my studies and find a job. I still have my future, but he might not be present in my future and it hurts.

"So.... you don't like him anymore?" Hao asked tentatively, his eyes on me while I struggled to open my mouth to answer.

As always, I'm with Hao whenever I feel stressed at my situation, he's like the older sister that I didn't have. Since he knew of my feelings to Willmark, it's easier for me to pour all my thoughts without the fear of being exposed.

"I- I really don't know... maybe? I guess so" I pouted and collapsed on my desk.

We sat on the corner of the class near the end of the room, we huddled on the seats as I tried to decide whether I would give up on my feelings for him and just stand as his friend or confess and possibly get rejected and break this only relationship of us.

"Yes or no?" I bit my bottom lip in contemplation.

I felt like I was being asked if I like my dad more or my mom combined with another example of being asked in a million dollar question. My heart almost burst out in pressure before I blurted out.

"No"

Then I collapsed, utterly defeated in my seat and moped around like I just lost half of my life.

I knew in my heart that it was a big fat lie, but I wanted to lie to myself that I can unlike him. I don't know, maybe I can, maybe I can't, I really don't know.

"I don't believe that at all, as they say, Tulak ng bibig kabig ng dibdib, so nope" he said in a sing-song voice that made me glare at him.

But he's right, I thought in my mind, but I won't say it.

Alas, I was finally defeated by the harsh truth, I couldn't unlike him that easily after all I didn't even like him in the first place. Wow, it took me a while to like him and now look at me, feeling so disgruntled at the fact that we would never have a chance together.

Just freaking great.

My phone lit up and a message from our PE group was seen, it seems like we'll be having another practice for today.

"Hey, what are the two of you doing there in the corner huh?" Evan asked with a mik-mik on his right hand.

"None of your business" I managed to say before face planting myself on the wooden desk and groaned out loud.

Ugh! I hate this day so much!

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"One, two, three and four! One, two, three a- Brix! Stop playing around! Again!"

My head's been boiling up in anger the moment I reached the school's court and see students practicing. The court was filled with students, each group have their own speaker connected on their phone and I was soon unable to hear our own voices.

"I think we should go to another place, it's too loud in here" I nodded before taking our bag along with us and going to the other gate.

There's another group in the gate practicing and one of them was Willmark's group. I couldn't decide whether it was luck or not but didnt manage to think further more when my one of my group mates called me.

Soon, we were practicing and I can only look at the practice dance repeatedly, trying to make sure that we're doing the right steps. I'm not a dancer and due to a unanimous decision mainly Brix's fault, I was nominated as the leader. I can only do my best and try to recreate the steps with my meager knowledge of dancing.

"One more time and we'll soon finish" I said and clapped my hand before taking action.

Our practice officially ended after an hour and I soon met eyes with Willmark, I turned away and took my bag before leaving.

"Jamie, wait"

I didn't wait and acted as if I didn't hear him call me then quickly jogged my way to the school gates. I fortunately managed to avoid him and get inside the tricycle.

What I didn't imagine was that the driver still needs one passenger and I was soon squished on the side by Willmark, his eyes trained on me as I keep my eyes away from his figure.

Dang it Manong! How can you be like this! Ugh!

Notes:

• "Tulak ng bibig, kabig ng dibdib" is a saying for those people who say one thing and yet mean another, mostly, it's for people in love.
• Mik-mik is a sweetened powder, chocolate or milk, encased in a foil sachet and sipped through a straw. It's like a childhood snack that every filipino kids have tried.
• Manong, a Filipino term reserved usually for an person older than you, usually used to males.

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