Gwen's Point Of View
"Hi!" I greeted Jarred as soon as I saw him walking towards me. We decided to have lunch here in my parents' house and go back to his parents' house for dinner before going home together in our house.
Mas binilisan niya naman ang lakad habang seryosong nakatingin sa akin. Hindi na naman ngumingiti.
Nagulat nalang ako nang mabilis niya kong niyakap nang makalapit siya sa akin. He held me as if I'm going to leave him anytime soon. Anong nangyayari dito?
"Oh, God. I missed you so much, baby." He heaved a deep sigh and hugged me tighter, if that's still possible. I hugged him back and I laughed. Parang baby talaga 'to.
"Para namang ang tagal nating hindi nagkita." Medyo lumayo naman siya at tinitigan ako. I looked up to him and smiled.
"I missed you, too." His eyes became gentle and he let out a genuine smile before going back to hugging me tight. I stiffened when I felt him kissed my head. Oh my gosh, my heart is beating too fast! I'm pretty sure that he can feel it!
"Hindi ko na ata kayang hindi ka kasama ng matagal. Hindi ako makatulog sa gabi." Mahinang sabi niya. Hindi parin kumakalas sa pagkakayakap sa akin. I chuckled.
"Wow, ha. Hindi naman tayo magkatabi matulog sa bahay natin, kaya anong pinagkaiba noon?" He caressed my hair, it felt so nice.
"Panatag ako kapag nasa iisang bahay lang tayo natutulog kahit magkahiwalay tayo ng kwarto. At bakit, gusto mo na bang magsama tayo?" Napairap ako sa tanong niya kahit pakiramdam ko ay namula ako. Lumayo ulit siya ng kaunti at tinitigan ako.
"Ayokong mabuntis ng maaga." I joked. Nanlaki ang mga mata niya at napatawa ng malakas. I laughed with him. He hugged me again while laughing.
"You're unbelievable! Ayan talaga ang naisip mo?" I shrugged.
"I was just kidding, tss." Umiling siya.
"But, I'm serious, though. I want us to stay in one room, but if it's too hard for you, then we won't do it. And, we won't have a baby if you don't want it yet." I nodded. So, he's planning to have a baby with me, huh?
"Huwag na muna, babe. Baka magbago pa isip natin eh." I felt his body tensed.
"What do you mean by that?" I heard a hint of anger in his voice. I sighed.
"I want us to be open in calling this marriage off, because it's possible. And I don't want us to give our everything to each other. It will hurt us if we fall apart." I told him honestly and hugged him tighter.
"I don't like that, babe." He said, firmly. I just nodded even if I don't actually understand what he means. Maybe we need more time to think this though and to finally have a mutual decision.
Humiwalay naman siya sa pagkakayakap sa akin at tinitigan ako ng mabuti.
"Ayaw mo na ba sakin?" He asked with a very serious eyes and voice. I'm not sure if it was hurt that I heard in his voice. Napaiwas ako ng tingin. Bakit naman biglang ganito yung topic namin? Sana pala hindi ko na inumpisahan kanina.
"Of course, not. I like being your friend. You're a very nice person. It's just that, I don't want you or me to have regrets someday." I smiled gently at him. He held my hand and kissed it.
"I feel the same way. I want us to talk about this more. I want us to have a mutual understanding in everything because I don't want to upset you when I accidentally do things that you don't want. And I want us to decide on our marriage because this is a lifetime commitment." Mas napangiti ako sa sinabi niya. He's really something.
Muli niyang hinalikan ang kamay ko. Ang kabila naman ay ginamit ko para hawakan ang braso niya. He looked up at me and smiled.
"Kain na tayo? Ipapatawag ko na sila mommy." He just nodded and smiled at me. Kumalas naman ako sa pagkakahawak niya at lumapit sa mga kasama namin sa bahay para ipatawag sila mommy, daddy, and kuya for lunch.
"So, when do you guys want to get married?" Dad asked when we are already eating. Napa angat ako ng tingin at sakto namang naka-tingin narin sa akin si Jarred na nasa tabi ko ngayon. He smiled.
"We're not sure yet, tito. But, we'll start planning after we graduate." Jarred answered, napa-tango naman sila mom and dad. Si kuya ay tahimik lang na naka-masid sa amin.
"Why? Don't you want to plan already and have your wedding after you both graduate?" Mom suggested. Mabilis naman akong umiling.
"We want to take things slow, mom. And we want to focus on graduating first." She sighed and just nodded. She seems upset. Mukhang nagmamadali ata ang mga magulang namin na maipa-kasal kami?
Tumanggi kami ni Jarred at agad na nagbukas ng panibagong mapag-uusapan si kuya. He smiled at me when he noticed that I was looking at him. I smiled back. Siguro ay naramdaman niya kung gaano kami ka-seryoso ni Jarred na ayaw muna talaga naming mag-handa para sa magiging kasal namin.
I don't know, I think I'm just scared to accept that I am really marrying this early. I have already planned my life even when I was still young. I knew to myself that I don't want to get married this early. I am just 22 and I plan to marry when I am 28 years old. But I guess, we can't really control our lives that much. I know that it was God who planned everything and I want to put my trust in Him.
"We'll go now. We will try to visit again next week." I kissed my mom, dad, and kuya's cheek. Humalik din naman si Jarred sa pisngi ni mommy at nakipag-kamay kila dad at kuya.
"We are planning to go to the beach po. We'll just go here after our trip." Jarred informed them. Tumango naman sila sa amin. Napa-ngisi si kuya.
"Enjoy!" Kuya smiled widely, inirapan ko nga. Para kasing may laman yung mga ngisi at salita niya eh. Napatawa siya at tinapik si Jarred sa balikat. Tumango at ngumiti sa kaniya si Jarred.
"We will." Jarred answered. I gave one last hug to my family and we went out already.
Jarred held my hand while he was driving. Napa-angat naman ako ng tingin sa kaniya. Sumulyap siya ng mabilis sa akin at ngumiti. Napa-ngiti narin ako at sumandal nalang sa upuan.
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Hello! It took me too long to update and it's too short. But, here it is. Hope you guys will like it! Stay safe and God bless!
