Cameron
Napabalikwas ako ng bangon ng may makapa ako na matigas na bagay sa tabi ko.
Nang mabistahan ko ito ay halos pangapusan ako ng hangin sa katawan dahil akala ko unan ito yun pala lalake na walang saplot ang katabi ko sa kama!
Nang makita ko ito ay kulang na lang ay lumubog ako sa hiya dahil first time ko na makakita ng hubad na katawan ng lalake.
Tuluyan na akong napatayo at sinipat ito dahil nakatagilid ito ng higa.
Nang hahawakan ko na ito sa balikat para itihaya nang makita ko ang hitsura ay bigla itong gumalaw at siguro naalimpungatan kaya bumalikwas din ito ng bangon.
Nang magtama ang paningin namin ay napanganga ako kasi.....
"Anton!!"
"Umm, Good morning Cameron" alanganin nitong bigkas.
Bigla yatang nanghina ang tuhod ko kaya napaupo ako sa tabi nya.
"What happen? May nangyari ba....." di ko na naituloy ang sasabihin ko pagkat tumango na ito.
Bigla ko na lang naramdaman na tumulo ang luha ko.
Kinabig ako nito sa dibdib nito at niyakap ako.
"Tahan na Cameron" he sighed and gently kiss my cheek as he wipe the tears in my face.
I was touch the way he cares about my feelings,
He knew i was scared that's why he comfort me,
Even if he don't speak up i knew what happen is my also my fault.
In the back of my mind i recall that i saw Andrei and I kissed him, but he didn't respond that's why i feel devastated but then I saw Anton comfort me and I feel overwhelm of joy that someone apart of my father care for me,
that's why i rely on my feeling,
I let myself be carried to the lust and passion new to me.
I let myself drown to the sensation new to me, maybe because....
All my life I longing to the attention of my family only my father love me, then came Andrei but he was snobing me,
Even him did not pay even a tiny affection to me.
They did not see me the way I want them to see me,
Andrei also see me as a spoiled brat that's why he hates me, he was so vocal to me about his irritation towards me.
I feels hopeless and lonely so I cannot blame Anton,
He only comforts me that lead to this mess,
That's why I'm crying,
I'm crying because I'm guilty of being happy to what happen about us,
I know I make a huge mistake....but I did not feel even slight of regret,
What I feel is relief,
I don't know why I have this feeling that, I'm happy that Anton was my first lover and....
I want him to be my last.
"Tahan na Cameron namamaga na yan mata oh" turo nito sa akin.
"Pumapangit ka tuloy" buska nito sa akin.
Sumimangot ako dito at natawa naman ito sa akin kaya nakadama ako ng asar dito.
Nahampas ko tuloy ito ng kamay ko at bahagyang kumawala dito pero nagulat ako ng kabigin nya ulit ako payakap sa kanya.
