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Seokjin - infertile

Life was supposed to be filled with joyful things for me and they were. I found someone who I loved and cherished. We got married 4 years ago. Jin was the most amazing human being ever. He never got angry. He knew how to make me feel better. However, one event turned everything upside down.

~ flashback ~
I was sat on the bed waiting for the nurse to check me over. I promised Jin I would come for my fertility check as we started our plan to have children. Jin was alright to ahead with children, he was just waiting for me.

"Ms Kim, we have your results"

"Ok. Are they good?"

"I'm sorry Ms Kim, did you know that you have Endometriosis?"

"What does that mean for my fertility?"

"I'm sorry, but you are unable to get pregnant. I'm sorry"

"Thank you for informing me"

~ end of flashback ~

That was three days ago and I'm still trying to figure out how to tell Jin. He was so happy to start a family and see me with a bump and hear the heartbeat. He doesn't get to see or hear that now. He was currently at practice with the boys and should be home soon for dinner. I finished cooking the rice just as the door opened and in walked Jin.

"Good evening wife"

"Hi"

"What's wrong"

That question made me freeze. How the hell do I tell him? A tear escaped my eye as put the spoon down on the countertop.

"Baby? What happened?"

"I'm sorry"

"Don't be sorry. What's wrong? You know I don't like seeing you cry"

"Can we talk after dinner?"

"Sure"

He helped me set the table and carry the food. We ate in silence at first but Jin started talking about how practicing was going and explained that they were nearly finished with their tour preparations.

•••

I had showered and changed into my pyjamas and walked downstairs where Jin was waiting for me. He gave me a smile as I sat next to him in the couch.

"What's going on in that cute head of yours?"

"I'm scared to tell you otherwise you'll leave me for someone better"

"That's no true"

"I went to my doctors three days ago and they checked my fertility"

"Was it good news?"

"I'm sorry. I'm not fertile. I'm so sorry Jin"

"What?"

"I have endometriosis"

"Baby. Please don't be sorry. These things happen in life to challenge us. Please don't put the blame on yourself"

"I just remember hearing how excited you were to see me with a bump carrying our child and hearing our child's heartbeat and how you were going to be there holding my hand and now I can't give you that

"Y/N, there are many other ways. We can always do surrogacy and adoption"

"I know"

"And no matter if the child is biological or not, we can always love them like they were our own"

"How do we tell our families and the boys. They were so excited to have a new member"

"And they'll still be excited. They'll still love you and the child we bring into our lives"

"Ok"

"Do you want the guys to come round and cheer you up. I know that makes you feel better"

"Yes"

•••
Jin rang his family and told them the news whilst I called my family and broke the news to them. They were heartbroken but they still supported whatever decision we made. The boys had arrived not too long ago. Jin sat next to me whilst Jimin, my brother, sat on the other side of me.

"Jimin, can Jin and I talk to you upstairs?"

"Sure"

We walked upstairs and sat down on the bed whilst Jimin sat on the chair at the vanity.

"What's up?"

"I've got endometriosis"

"What does that mean?"

"I can't have children"

"Really?"

"Yeah. I'm sorry"

"Don't be sorry sister. That's just life. I'll support any decision you and Jin make. Your my older sister and you've got a good husband beside you. You've got a family behind you and you've got 5 amazing guys downstairs who will support and love you still. We're in this together"

We hugged and went and told the guys the news. The same words were mentioned and they were a bit upset but like Jimin said 'we're in this together'