Never Meant To Be

Chapter Five

Aria's POV

I can't marry Axel. I can't push on with this.

I looked at myself in the mirror and I hated myself even more. Despite having one of the best make-up artists do my make-up and the best hairstylist style my hair and wear the most beautiful designer wedding dress, I still looked like a freak. I don't deserve Axel, he is so handsome and attractive, he deserves someone that matches his standards. I never wanted to marry Axel, yes I loved him from the very first day that I saw him and I still do love him more than anything, but I am not good enough for him. I feel like I am taking advantage of his blind situation and I will be the one benefitting from this marriage because I would be the wife of one of the most handsome and eligible men in this city. My father is right, I will never find true love because of how I look, and when I found out of my father's real reason to get me married to Axel, I had another good reason to not go on with this marriage. I had even thought of running away but ever since the my wedding rehearsal day,  my father had tightened the security around the house, and I had never got the chance to speak to Axel since I had not seen him ever since.

I had never told anyone that I have leukemia, only my parents and the household staff knew, not even Axel knew of it. When people see me they only see a freak and they want to stay as far away from me as possible, and I don't want to go around telling them that I have leukemia and gain their pity so that they will start treating me like one of them and caring for me because I know it will all be pretence. That's the main reason why I have never told anyone of my illness.

I snapped out of my thoughts when I heard someone knock on the door and I quickly wiped the tears that I had no idea were flowing.

"Come in." I said after taking a deep breath.

Valerie walked in and to say she was stunning would be an understatement. She was wearing her peach coloured bridesmaid dress and her hair was tied up in a bun leaving two strands falling at the sides, and her make-up was light but she looked very beautiful. I wished I was as beautiful as her.

"Hi Aria!" She said as she came to stand beside me and I returned her greeting with a smile.

"I came to see you before we leave for the venue so that I could wish you good luck." She said.

"Thanks Val." I said in a non excitement voice and she noticed it.

"Hey, what's wrong?" She asked concerned.

"It's nothing, I am just nervous." I lied.

"That is just the jitters, I heard it is totally normal to have it, but don't worry everything is going to be fine." She said as she gave me a hug. Valerie is the only cousin of mine that I am close to, unlike my other cousins she doesn't look at me as if I am a freak and she is always nice to me.

Just then my mother came in."There you are Valerie, you need to get downstairs so that the car can take you to the venue, the others are already waiting in the limousine."

"Okay aunt Kristine, I will be on my way." She said and left the room.

My mother came and stood behind and looked at me through the mirror. She put her hand on my shoulder and I saw tears starting to form in her eyes.

"It is every mother's dream to see  their daughter getting married but to me it is a nightmare, because my daughter isn't happy and neither am I. I have always wanted what is best for you and I have always done everything to make you happy but today I feel like I have failed because my daughter isn't happy." She said as she broke down crying and I put my hand on hers.

"No mum don't cry, I can't bare seeing you like this." I said as tears started flowing down my cheeks.

"I am sorry Aria, please forgive me, I should have been honest with you from the very start, please forgive me."