I'm Here

Chapter 34-Emily

Should I feel terrible that I'm dating Liam even though not even a week ago I was dating Luke? It makes me wonder if this is what I've been waiting for this whole time. Right now I'm hanging out with Sarah and Sophia, it really is great that we have another girl in our group now because being one out of two girls in a group of five boys was tiring, I can't believe there is eight of us now.

Thinking back to the begining of the school year it was only me, Andrew, Jonathan and Sophia. Now I have my best friend back and his friends.

"Emily did you hear me?" Sarah waved a hand in front of my face making me snap out of my daze.

"Sorry what?"

"I asked if you told Liam about where you're thinking about going for college." she asked while Sophia shook her head and licked her ice cream "I told you she keeps chickening out everytime and they end up making out."

"Shut up Soph you know it's harder for me than for you guys." I said reaching out to hit her making her almost drop her ice cream. She glared at me "If my ice cream fell you would've been dead to me."

Sarah laughed at us as we started to bicker "You guys sound like an old married couple."

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After we came back from walking around I decided to just go home while they went to a party with the boys. Besides I had to babysit James.

Just as I clicked another video on YouTube I heard a quiet knock on my open door. Turning my head to look at the door I see James looking around my room with his hands behind his back.

"Um can I um come in?" He asked nervously as he avoided eye contact, I stared at him suspiciously before noticing his sleep pants were darker than usual.

"Oh James did you pee your bed again?" I groaned as I got up from my bed to walk into his room to look at his bed. It was wet confirming that he did.

Hearing his foot steps in the hallway I turned around with his sheets in my arms and then walked over to him to pick him up. I didn't have to look at him to know he had tears in his eyes.

"Please don't tell daddy! Please! He thinks I'm a big boy I don't want him to be mad at me!" he cried out as tears poured out of his eyes.

I set him down to put the sheets in the washing machine before looking at him and crouching down to his level.

"I'm not gonna tell on you cause when I was your age I peed myself a lot." he looked at me and giggled.

We walked back to his room and he stared at the mattress and saw a big stain was still there and looked up at me with panic, "He's gonna find out now!"

I watched in amusement as he paced back and forth talking about 'bills' and how he needs to come up with a plan. Someone has been hanging around dad way too much.

"Hey hey hey, look I have an idea" I flipped the mattress over to the other side "See? Problem solved." I smiled as I showed him the mattress and how the stain wasn't there.

We are back in my room now and I watched as he watched the little tv I had in my room, "James why did you pee the bed? I know if you really had to go you would've got up and peed."

"I had a nightmare...." he crawled closer to me on the bed. "What about?" I questioned curiously he was avoiding eye contact and was hesitant to tell me.

"Well, ever since you and Li became friends again you don't hang out with me that much anymore so I had a dream you went away and you never came back and you forgot all about me, which is true cause you're going away soon and...and you'll forget about me I know it!" James' voice was shaking as a year rolled down his cheek "I don't wanna lose you too...." he mumbled.

I felt a lump in my throat cause I know he's talking about mom. I cleared my throat to try to get rid of the lump in my throat "Oh buddy I'm not leaving for good and I'm definitely not gonna forget about you."

"Yes you will cause you already did. We never hang out anymore or go places to get ice cream and" he stopped to breathe and wipe his nose "dad always had to pick me up from school on the last few months we had it and he never asked the teacher how I was in school like you did so he didn't know when I got extra cookies or not." he sobbed into his hands.

The amount of guiltiness I'm feeling right now is indescribable, I'm going to college soon and I'm not gonna be here to watch him grow up and I was too busy hanging out with my friends to realize I was ignoring the one person that will always be there for me.

"I'm so sorry James. I never meant to hurt you the way I did believe me and I'm sorry we never hang out anymore, tomorrow and the day after that is gonna just be about me and you no one else." I took off my glasses to wipe my face as tears started streaming down my face as well.

"Promise?" He sniffled as he looked at me, I smiled at him "Pinky promise."

I heard someone sniffle in the doorway and saw Chris and my dad standing their wiping their eyes "That was so cute and sad at the same time, and now I'm emotional." Chris cried into my dad's shoulder making James laugh.

"Why are you here and where is everyone else?" I laughed wiping a away the rest of my tears "They walked away when you started crying cause they started crying and was afraid they'd be too loud." my dad said.

Sophia ran into the room and into my arms "That was so heartwarming come here James." she said as she pushed me out the way and picked him up giving him a lot of kisses. Today was a long day.

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sO SORrY THIS CHAPTER WAS HELLA SHORT I HAVE A HARD TIME THINKING ON WHAT TO WRITE (not to mention i'm starting a new story and i'm having trouble with that too) I HAVE BEEN OFF MY GAME LATELY SORRY ILY WAFFLES