Lovely by LillyMoonchild

Chapter 5 [Keith]

Keith couldn't sleep. Instead he started at the dark wand, trying to feel. Feel something, happiness, sadness,... It scared him, even if he couldn't feel anything. He knew what the therapist had said: You have to take these pills, you'll soon get better.

He never took it. It felt wrong. He was scared. Now nobody cared. Now nobody new. If someone in the past told him, he wouldn't be able to feel again in the future, he would reacted happy. He remembered, leaning against a wall, crying, asking how much he could take anymore.

It didn't went right. It went horrible wrong. Keith knew that this called depression, just an illness, you can heal it with pills. This was wrong. It wasn't something without a dam reason. As he went back to school, years ago, he'd tried to act normal. It'd worked. Now he couldn't cry, he couldn't cut himself (maybe) , he couldn't feel.

Somehow he'd fallen asleep. In the morning Shiro woke him. It was like normal, just that it wasn't. Weeks ago he'd been on the streets.
Deepened in his thoughts he ate breakfast with Shiro and his boyfriend Adam. Keith didn't really new Adam, of course Shiro told him, but he was actually nicer than Keith expected. Takashis first boyfriend was well, not so nice. He persuaded Shiro to give Keith away. But it wasn't just Shiros ex boyfriends fault...Stop! He knew it wouldn't change anything.
"Uhm, Keith?" Adam asked kindly. "Yeah?" Keith responded, trying to be nice too. "Should we drive you to school?" he asked. "No." Keith answered fast. He didn't need another full-time-Babystitter-brother. "I'll walk." he decided.

As he left the house, little snowflakes entangled in his hair. He liked snow, not like he liked it (he doesn't liked anything), he accepted it. Keith put on his headphones, playing the music. It wasn't his favorite song, but it was definitely okay.

"I used to shut my door while my mother screamed in the kitchen
I'd turn the music up, get high and try not to listen
To every little fight, 'cause neither one was right
I swore I'd never be like them
But I was just a kid back then
The older I get the more that I see
My parents aren't heroes, they're just like me
And loving is hard, it don't always work
You just try your best not to get hurt
I used to be mad but now I know
Sometimes it's better to let someone go
It just hadn't hit me yet
The older I get
I used to wonder why, why they could never be happy
I used to close my eyes and pray for a whole 'nother family
Where everything was fine, one that felt like mine
I swore I'd never be like them
But I was just a kid back then
The older I get the more that I see
My parents aren't heroes, they're just like me
And loving is hard, it don't always work
You just try your best not to get hurt
I used to be mad but now I know
Sometimes it's better to let someone go
It just hadn't hit me yet
The older I get
The older I get the more that I see
My parents aren't heroes, they're just like me
And loving is hard, it don't always work
You just try your best not to get hurt
I used to be mad but now I know
Sometimes it's better to let someone go
It just hadn't hit me yet
The older I get"

By Sasha Sloan

[New Chapter! Hope you all enjoy. The fact that Keith's depressed is my favorite. I know that. Hope you all enjoy
Ps: Love this song (if you have Spotify be sure to check my Playlists! Username: Lilly [dauther of Zeus]
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/04j4fGIbGnmbjTvfEaeYSv?si=JLuD7M3BRnaMDf0nm0Qepw
Enjoy ✨]