A Soul's Past and Future

A Spark

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in this story. Everything in here belongs to Marvel. Any OC added will be made known that they are mine. Other than that it belongs to Marvel.

Chapter 36: A Spark

Your fault. Your fault. Your fault. It's all your fault.

Peter choked on a sob and landed in the middle of nowhere. He took of his mask and gripped it tightly in his hand. He had activated Karen via the watch he made to send out the new suit he made. A new design that instead of the traditional red and blue, it was red and black.

"Gods, I'm so stupid." Peter whispered.

"Peter, your heartrate and breathing levels are abnormal, shall I send Tony your location." Peter heard Karen from his mask. A new feature he added so that he didn't need the mask on the talk with Karen.

"No, Karen silence." Peter ordered and she fell silent. Another feature Peter added was 'silence'. Silence was a mode that made it so Karen couldn't speak to him as the mask was off. "This is so stupid. I'm so stupid!"

Peter punched the ground, creating a small crater in the ground. He wiped his eyes. Peter looked around.

"Where even am I?" Peter went to put his mask on. Karen immediately asking him if he was okay. "I'm fine. Just, scan the area. Where am I?"

"You are about a hundred kilometers from the city." Karen informed him.

"I travelled that far? Okay then." Peter shot a web and started swinging. He made it into the city and landed on a random roof top. He honestly didn't know where to go. Where would he go? He didn't want to bother Red and he honestly didn't want to be around Wade at the moment. So, the members of Team Red were out of the question.

Peter started mindlessly swinging. He let his body go on autopilot. That's how he found himself in his old room. Back in his old apartment where he used to live with May. Nothings really changed. Everything was where he left it. Honestly, he's surprised the place hasn't been sold yet.

He walked out of his room and walked through the old place. It was covered in dust and a few cobwebs here and there. Pictures of him, May and Ben were still up and old tapes were on the ground from the TV.

He then spotted a picture that wasn't there before. It was one of him and Tony. The one where he was holding up his Stark Industry certificate upside down. Peter didn't know when May put it up or why. In fact, he didn't even remember seeing it when he came here last. The day where he had to call Matt and get CPS off his back.

"In coming call from MJ."

Peter was surprised she was calling. He expected Tony or Happy, or even Ned. But MJ? "Uh, answer."

"Peter?" Her voice came through.

"Hey, MJ. Why are you calling?"

"Because Shuri just sent me a message saying that you ran off and they couldn't track you. They asked if you were with me but you obviously weren't." MJ stated. "Where are you?"

"I'm in, uh, I'm at my old apartment." Peter answered.

"I figured. Open the door."

"What?" Suddenly, there was a knock at the door. Peter walked up and opened the door. MJ was standing there. She ended the call and Peter took off his mask. "How?"

"You are predictable." MJ said and invited herself in.

"I- okay. Uh, what are you doing here?"

"What does it look like?" MJ said, spinning around to look at Peter as he shut the door.

Peter gave her a look. "uh, standing?"

"No, idiot." MJ rolled her eyes. "I'm here for you."

"Me?"

"Did you hit your head too hard or something?"

"I- uh, no?"

"Are you sure about that? Cause you're being more of an idiot than you usually are."

"Yes, I am sure." Peter said, exasperated.

"What's going on, Parker?" MJ crossed her arms.

Peter leaned back on the door. "I don't know anymore. One moment everything's fine and the next I screw things up." Peter started. "Is it too much to ask to have a semi-normal life? Just a few quiet months where I'm not fighting for my life? Where everything's fine and the people I care about aren't in the middle of a huge mess I created?" Peter looked down. "I'm sorry. I really shouldn't put this on you."

"You know, you're living a very interesting life. I've been watching you-"

"You've been watching me?"

"-because of my suspicions of you being spider-man." MJ continued as if Peter didn't just interrupt her. "Maybe life isn't giving you what you want. But when does it ever? Sometimes you just have to step back and realize that everything is where it needs to be."

"Damn, when did you become so poetic? What happened with all the sarcasm and calling me a 'dork' or 'idiot'?"

"Oh, don't worry. You're still a dork and an idiot. I don't think that'll ever change."

"Ouch."

MJ just stared at Peter. She could tell that Peter was processing her words. He just needed a small push. "You're dumb and pull the stupidest stunts, but you end up doing the right thing. Your heart and your brain are in a constant battle. A battle you need to take control over. "

"How am I supposed to win a battle when I don't even know where to go?"

"I think you do know."

Peter stared at the ground before looking up to see the picture of him and Tony to MJ's expecting face. 

"You know what." Peter waved his finger in the air. "I have to go."

Peter raced to his room. MJ following close behind him. Before he could jump out of his window. MJ grabbed his wrist. Peter turned to face her.

"Just come back to us." Something sparked in Peter as he stared at MJ. Swallowing a lump in his throat, Peter nodded. She let him go and he put on his mask. MJ watched as he disappeared into the city that never sleeps.

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Peter swung through the city. He had almost made it out when suddenly there was a sharp pain in his neck. He grew drowsy and lost momentum. Peter fell and landed just on the outskirts of the city. Groaning Peter shakily got up.

"Well, well, well. Look what we have here."

Peter looked up but his vision went blurry. He couldn't see who was talking. Peter was pushed back to the ground and he felt his hands being tied behind him. Peter tried to break free but his strength was slipping like sand.

"Nighty night, Spider. We'll see you real soon." 

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Idk what to put at the end for these Author's notes anymore. Lmao, anyway 3 days till Christmas. That feels weird. I feel like this year went by so slowly but yet it went by way too quickly. Idk.

Anyway Byeee!