In A Relationship Contract

Epilogue

The In A Relationship Contract

"It starts with a fight then we talk about this feelings but fight again so I sing for you, Lady. I will do everything I can, even I can't, though I know it will end," - The Midnight Lovers by Jeremy Alps

ISINARADO ko ang libro matapos kong mabasa ang kwento. Hindi ko naiintindihan ang pakiramdam ko matapos kong basahin ang kwentong ito. Parang bawat salita ay tumatagos sa puso ko at parang kutsilyong sumugat at muling nagbukas ng mga sugat ng nakaraan.

More than a year since that day, the day I found myself alone in the dark and being left by the man I choose to be with in my life. But still I know, I hope for the day I will find him beside me while we're smiling with each other, even he'll look at me like a stranger.

I looked outside the glass wall here in the coffee shop after reminiscing the past. The outside view is still the way it used to be but for me, it changed a lot. No one is here at my side.

Alone. Lonely. Broken. Still breaking.

I was about to stand and got out when a server approached me so I felt confused.

"Good morning, Ma'am." magiliw niyang bati kaya napangiti ako.

"Hello, do you bring my bill?" tanong ko at napailing siya.

"May gusto lang pong magpasabi sa inyo na sagutin niyo raw po ang tatawag sa inyo." naguguluhan ko siyang tinignan.

"Huh? Sino?"

"Hindi po nagpakilala."

"Nasaan siya?" napalingon-lingon ako sa loob ng shop.

"Nakaalis na po siya." sagot niya kaya napangiti na lang ako sa kanya.

"Okay. Salamat." sambit ko at nagpaalam siya.

Naguguluhan akong binuksan ang phone ko at hinintay ang sinasabi ng server na tatawag. At may tumawag nga sa akin muka sa unknown number.

Nagdadalwang isip pa ako kung sasagutin ko pero napagdesisyunan ko na lang na sagutin. I placed it near my ear and hear a silence over the phone.

"Hello?" una kong banggit dahil wala namang nagsasalita and I left being petrified after hearing the voice.

"Hey, lady. How are you?"

Napatayo ako at napalingon sa lahat ng taong nakaupo. Para akong baliw na naghahanap sa kung sino. I know, I am sure na narito pa siya. I know him. Pinapanood niya pa ako mula sa kung saan.

"Calm down, lady." sambit niya mula sa kabilang linya.

Napaupo ako at napakalma. All this time, I'm longing for his voice and himself and now I hear his voice. I have so much to ask but I don't know where to start. The time he broke up with me is the last time I saw him and hear his voice.

"So how are you?"

I don't know what to say. I don't know what to response to him. I want to shout at him and say all the things that become a burden this heart of mine but I can't.

"Hey, Alliana? Magsalita ka naman."

I feel my heart beats faster and I feel excited just hearing his voice. My eyes get watery and soon, tears will follow.

"Alliana, spea—"

"I miss you."

With so much anger and questions I can say over the phone. To the many madness, grudge, pain and hurt that I think of saying to him the day we can speak again, I choose to say how I long for him all this time.