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Chapter 11

Billie

For the next two months, I've been working for Raymon. I've been doing simple things like drug deals and being by his side when he had to handle some business. He looked at me at his right hand man, I hated that. If I could go back to being a normal teenager I'd trade it in a heartbeat. I've been doing drugs more often. I've gotten better at hiding it, but of course there's always signs. I'm not myself and my mental health has been declining on me. The only thing keeping me going is my daughter, my baby, she turned one today.

I hosted a little party for her, my family was there and of course Cassie came as well. I set up some decorations outside, fairies, moons, streamers you name it I just diy'd the hell out of it and made it come together nicely.

Throughout the party, I snuck off because I needed to get high. I was sniffing heroin and I have been for the past two months. I was a full blown addict and I didn't know what I'd do if I didn't have my drugs. I cleaned my nose and placed the baggie into my pocket leaving the bathroom. On the way down the stairs I ran into Cassie and she smiled opening her arms for me.

"Billie where'd you go?"

"I can't go to the bathroom?"

"You doing okay?"

"Why wouldn't I be?" I smiled and leaned in to kiss her on the lips.

"I have to find Eloise join me," I said after pulling away"

"She's with your brother and Claudia playing a game"

"I can't believe she's one, she's getting so big already"

"Just wait till she really grows into her features"

"I have a feeling her hair is going to be really long"

"I brought a gift for her I hope she likes it"

"I'm sure she'll love it"

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"Go ahead blow out the candles," I said to Eloise while everyone was gathered around the both of us since she was sitting on my lap and we sang happy birthday to her.

She bent down and tried her best to blow out her candle but was unsuccessful. I counted to three and helped her blow out her candle then she clapped her little hands together right after. We cut the cake and gathered at the table enjoying it altogether. We talked, laughed and my daughter got her mouth and hands messy so I eventually took her upstairs to clean her up with a wet wash cloth.

"You're getting so big on me baby," I smiled and wiped her mouth off then gave her a kiss on the cheek. She giggled and I tickled her which made her giggle even more.

"I love you so so so much"

I picked her up, throwing her in the air and catching her. I kissed her nose and brought her out of the bathroom to take her back in the backyard.

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Eloise was exhausted from all of the games we played for her birthday so I gave her a bath and laid her down for bed. My parents on the other hand were busy in the backyard taking down decorations. I went into the bathroom again to lay down a thin line and sniffed it. What I forgot to do was lock the door and someone walked in mid doing drugs. I sniffed it so fast that it didn't feel right going up my nose, but it wasn't even compared to the trouble I was about to face.