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Billie

Eloise screamed at the top of her lungs and was throwing a fit, and I was so out of it I watched her burn out and cry because I gave her two options to either go to bed or take her lil ass to bed, oh wait I said there was a second option right? Whoops.

"Mama,"she reached out for me, tears rolling down her face and giving me that cute baby pout. I gave in and picked her up off of the floor.

"Are you done being a pain in my ass tonight?"

She stopped crying and was now hiccuping due to how much she was crying. She laid her head on my shoulder and began playing with my chains. She touched my hair and then my face.

I chuckled and kissed her head. I hummed a soft tune and ran my fingers through her hair while rocking her slowly to soothe her.

Wait a minute let me finish I know you don't care but can you listen, I came committed, guess I over did it wore my heart out on a chain around my neck but now it's missing mhm.

I sang to her a little bit of the song I wrote and saw that her eyes were beginning to get a little heavy. I smiled and continued to sing and rock her to sleep until she was finally out. I laid her down in my bed and gave her purple bunny to her. After I kissed the side of her head and sighed thinking about how much she looked like her mother.

I sat on my floor and opened my laptop. I started going through videos of Isis and me and looked back at how happy we were. Even though we were 15 and 16, I was madly in love with her. I thought about us getting married, and when she got pregnant raising our kid together. We fantasized about being rich and having all of the bags and shoes that one could dream of.

I came across a video of us getting high together and having the giggles. She's Russian and from Russia and in the video the weed made her forget a certain word in English and she was trying to describe it to me in Russian, at this time I was still learning how to speak it fluently so we were laughing cause we were both confused. Turns out she was trying to describe a fan.

Eventually my eyes grew heavy and I shut my laptop and climbed into bed next to my daughter and fell asleep.

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I got home from school and the house was quiet so I assumed my parents were napping. I went over to the living room and saw that Eloise was sleep on the couch with a blanket on her and pepper our dog was sleep beside her. the TV was still on the volume was on low and the fan was blowing in her direction. I turned the tv off and gave her a kiss on the cheek before deciding to put my bag down and taking my sweater off.

I went upstairs to find my parents and ran into my mom coming out of the bathroom.

"Oh hi Billie Eloise is asleep on the couch"

"I know mom thank you"

"Your father and I are going to be heading out now we should be back tomorrow morning"

"Okay I love you guys"

"We love you too, Billie please don't leave the house tonight you know I worry"

"I won't mom I promise"

"There's food in the fridge if you and Eloise get hungry and you know call us if you need anything Billie"

"Okay"

"Ready to go?" My dad asked my mom while coming out of their room.

"Yep bye Billie," my mom pulled me into a hug.