The Reality (MSF book2)

Chapter Twenty

"Anak, kumain kana." Rinig kong sabi ni mama.

I look up at my mom and turn my back on her. "Im not hungry ma." I whisper and hug my pillow.

"Your tita Michelle is worrying about you anak." She said, and I felt her at my back. "Ilang linggo ka nang nagkukulong dito anak, tumatawag na rin ang school mo. Lalo na si coach Tai, lagi kang tinatanong."

Napapikit ako ng mariin dahil sa sinabi ni mama. "Ipa-drop mo na ako ma." Walang gana kong sagot sakanya. "Total dalawang linggo naman na akong hindi pumapasok." Dagdag ko pa.

I heard my mom's sigh. "Hindi na kita kilala Alyssa." She whispered before leaving my room.

I hold my breath avoiding my sobs to came out. "You're brave." I whisper as I close my eyes, feeling every tears falling out off my eyes.

It's been two weeks since that engagement. I ran away. I don't get it, why the world is making things hard for me. Everything changes since that day. I heard the news that Justine migrated to Paris. And it hurts me, of course. She really wants me to love her sister.

It was just a dream and yet she wants to make it real. I did love to make it real before, and that was BEFORE. Not right now or tomorrow, because it's the opposite. I hate her, I hate myself and I hate my dream. Im mess up because of that shit.

I didn't attend my school for two weeks. I stayed home. Locking myself up inside my room. I don't want to go out, I just want to stare at the ceiling. Thinking all things up. Things that I messed up.

*buzz *buzz

I reach for my phone on my bedside table. I look on the screen and throw it again. "Waste of time." I whisper though greeted teeth. It's Ella.

*knock *knock *knock

"Its open." Sigaw ko at hindi tinapunan ng tingin ang pintuan.

"Anak..." My dad. "Ilang araw ka ng nandito. Hindi ko na ba pwedeng ilabas ang nag-iisa kong unica ija?" He asked, and I can feel the warmth of his voice.

"Pa im tired."

"Nakahiga ka lang maghapon anak."-Papa

I close my eyes and tears fell again. I cover my lips and wipe my tears. "I want to take a rest pa." I hissed.

I felt him held my hand and pulled me to seat up. "Masama magsinungaling anak. Hindi kapa kumakain." He says with a sad voice. "Papatayin mo ba sarili mo?"

"Wala po akong gana."

"Next Month third week, is the championship anak. And the next day will be Den's graduation."-Papa

"I dont care."

"Your team mates misses you already. They're asking kung kailan ka daw papasok."-Papa

"Ayoko ng pumasok pa." Seryosong sabi ko.

Hindi siya sumagot. Bagkus ay tumayo ito at dumeretso sa mga kalat ko. I saw him picked up the blue book and saw his smile. "You're throwing this out?" He asked.

"That's a waste."

"It isn't. It was my daughter's work." He smillingly said before opening the book. "Life is too short anak. Dont waste your time locking yourself up in here. Walang magagawa ang pagmumuk-mok."

"No one cares."

"Of course we care. Me and your mom, your brothers and your team mates. Justine doesn't want you to be like this."-Papa

"She left me. She don't care about me pa."

I heard my dad's laugh kaya napatingin ako dito. "Inlove ka nga kay Justine?" He asked.