I Know Your Scared Of The Unknown

Chapter 35

I had woken up earlier than Sophie which was not a surprise after her extreme day drinking adventure yesterday. She had woken up several times throughout the night extremely sick, each time I had helped her make her way to the bathroom staying with her as I did my best to comfort her through each wave of nausea that took over her body.

She never seemed to forget everything that had happened yesterday, each time she would get up she'd always look at me with her sleepy eyes and smile and tell me how sorry she was, and how she promised she would work hard on being everything that I had wanted her to be and more before resting her head back on my chest and falling back asleep.

I slowly moved myself from the bed, carefully placing Sophie down on the pillow I had just been using before pulling the covers up to her chin. I placed a long kiss on her forehead, running my fingers through her dull light brown locks. I grabbed my smokes off of the bedside table and pocketed the lighter before I headed out to the back patio off of my room.

I sat myself in one of the few chairs that littered the small space, grabbed a cigarette from the brand new pack before lighting it, inhaling deeply on the long cylindrical stick, the bud blazing orange as the white paper slowly started to disappear. I held the smoke in my lungs briefly, the nicotine coursing through my veins before blowing it out in a thick off white cloud. I leaned my forearms on my thighs as I stared down at the stone floor beneath me, the cigarette burning without being used between my fingers.

Even though I hate to admit it, I have done shit like this before but I never felt the consequences of it quite as badly, or if I did I just never really cared. With Sophie it was all different, I had turned her from this sweet, amazing, perfect girl for me into a person who felt like she needed to be someone completely different to deserve my love when in reality it was me who should be the one who changes to deserve her love.

Not only that, but now I had to deal with Chris who was trying to swoop in as the perfect guy. I  had thought I made it clear to him that he should stay away from her, that despite everything that was going on between us she was still my wife and she was off limits. But, Chris being Chris he didn't seem to care.

Not only that, but he was using everything that happened to get to me as well. Instead of getting mad at him for trying to get with Sophie, I was letting him get to me about how I was treating Sophie and if I kept letting that happen I was going to slip up and he was going to slip in to my spot.

I brought my cigarette back to my lips, surprised as to how far down it had burned in the moments I had let my thoughts slip away, as I pulled my phone out of my pocket. I knew that she had told me she was done with me after what I had brought Sophie back to, but she was the only person I could think of to steer me in the right path with all of this. With only the slightest bit of hesitation, I pressed the calloused pad of my thumb over Lauren's name and brought my phone to my ear, listening to the call back tone before she finally picked up.

"Yeah?" she greeted me with an annoying tone to her voice as I sat myself back in my chair, determined to have this conversation with her despite how much she didn't want to speak with me.

"Listen I know you told me you didn't want me to talk to you again after yesterday" I started.

"So then why are you?" she asked me without hesitation, the annoyance building in her voice and I would be wrong if I said I didn't deserve it.

"I'm at a loss of what to do Lauren. Despite the fact that she should forget everything that had happened with how much she drank, she's still very aware of everything" I said with a chuckle, my left elbow resting on the arm of the chair as I rested my forehead on my palm.

"That's the funny thing about Sophie Austin. She could be black out drunk yet she still remembers. I hope you didn't think that she was going to sleep this off and you were going to move on like nothing ever happened" she said with a questioning tone in her voice.