Complicated

(27)~monster

I kick my shoes to the side as Trevon holds me by the waist to prevent me from falling. The car drive was full of sexual tension, it was going to come soon anyways and I am ready. With the jealousy radiating off him and my needy hormones, this night about to end blissfully.

He trailed behind me as we ran up the stairs, "your parents aren't home" I said while walking into the room with my back faced to the door. He attached his lips back to mine before murmuring a 'yes', I untied the ribbon around my waist to loosen my dress.

He let me take off his shirt before I attacked his back with my fingers, dragging them across his skin. I hurriedly climbed unto the bed and he came after a second.

I used the hair band on my wrist to tie my curls to the back, he looks more turned on with that motion and it makes my body heat up more.

"Come here" he pulled my waist which caused me to collide into him. I pull down my dress as he kisses each part of my exposed skin, going lower after each kiss.

"Damn I love you" I hear him say but his voice was low enough for me to pretend like I did not just hear that. He brings himself back up and looks at me in the eyes before pushing me down on the bed.

He runs his nose down my thighs, every move makes my body more sensitive until he reaches the spot I've been waiting for. I spread my legs wider and he goes down on me. He held my thighs apart firmly as I tried to close them, I placed my hands on his head to steady myself. My moaning and panting can be heard from a mile away that I had to slap one hand on my mouth to keep it at a minimum

I pull him back up to kiss me. He starts unbuckling his pants and reality hit back.

"Trev" it seems like he didn't hear me because he comes back down to kiss me after taking off the belt. I kiss him back.

Maybe I should just get over myself and let him do it, I'm not with Simon anymore so I have to realise that most guys are not like him. That was a false statement, every guy that isn't close to me is basically labelled as someone who can hurt me till I can at least share something with the guy.

"Trev" I say his voice louder and firmly this time, it's not yet time, I just can't get over it yet.

"I'm sorry, I-" my words wind up on my lips

"If you aren't ready that's okay with me Gracie" he strokes my hair then gives me a kiss before lying on the bed beside me.

"Are you a umm" he scratched his hair and I laughed at how innocent he looks, "no.. no I'm not Trevon" I place one kiss on his lips before shutting my eyes slowly

"Maddy and Naya are having a little party for their acceptance, do you wanna come?" I say after a while but he was already asleep

*****

Maddy and Naya got into University of Southern California so they decided to throw a little get together to thank everyone, but lowkey they just want to throw a party. The event is only by invitation so it's not like a high school house party, everyone is wearing a formal yet casual outfit, I'm wearing a one hand sleeve blush pink fitting jumpsuit with a black Salvatore moccasin.

Trevon agreed to come with me, I still feel bad for what happened last night though he keeps saying that he's fine with my decision and it is not a dealbreaker, I feel there's more to it on my part.

Naya is walking towards me but it seems like she didn't notice me because someone is speaking to her. She finally noticed and looked at me, "Gracie" her arms embracing me in a comforting hug. I miss the soft assuring words she used to give me when I was younger, I mean she still does but now she's actually leaving soon for college and the time is moving closer each day.