Love and Crosses (DELREAL SERIES #1)

SIXTEEN

CALLIE

“What the hell?! So 'yung guy na kinwento mo sa'kin noon ay nakita mo ulit at Zach ang pangalan niya, and he's Celline's boyfriend?” Swaine's eyes are wide. She has this unbelievable expression in her face. I nodded and sighed.

“Oh my gosh, girl! Ang malas mo!” She exclaimed.

“What will I do, Swaine? I love Celline and I don't want to hurt her but I love Zach too! I don't know what to do anymore. Feeling ko mababaliw na 'ko!” I pulled my hair because of frustration. I felt like something died in me the moment Celline announced that Zach is her boyfriend. Ang daming lalaki sa mundo, bakit si Zach pa? I can't believe how small our world is.

The image of Celline and Zach kissing and hugging each other last night flashed in my mind and it made my blood boiled.

That should be me!

“Calm down, Callie. Hindi ko rin alam ang dapat mong gawin. Did you tell Celline? Alam na ba niya?” I shook my head.

There's something in my mind that's saying na I should tell Celline but there's also a part of me who doesn't want to hurt her. Nakita ko ang pagmamahal sa mga mata ng kakambal ko kagabi. Her smile's so genuine and she really looks happy. The moment she told me that she loves Zach, I felt that. I don't want to ruin her happiness.

“What will you do?” Swaine asked me worriedly.

“I want Zach.” I answered. I want him. He's mine. We met first.

“Eh paano mo nga gagawin 'yon? He's your sister's boyfriend, Callie! What? Aagawin mo siya kay Celline? Can you do that? Can you hurt your sister just because you want Zach?” Her words was like a bomb that exploded right infront of me.

Can I? Can I do that? Can I hurt my twin sister?

'No guy will come between us. Promise me na kahit anong mangyari, uunahin mo pa rin ang pagiging magkapatid natin. Promise me, Celline. That you will choose our friendship over anything else.'

“We... We promised...” I said as I felt a lump forming in my throat.

I want Zach but I don't wanna hurt Celline. She's my sister. My best friend. My savior. She was always been there for me and I can't afford to hurt her.

“Do you know the best thing to do? Talk to your sister. She should know, Callie.” Swaine said.

“How can I tell her? Paano ko sasabihin sa kaniya nang hindi siya nasasaktan?” Nahihirapan kong tanong.

“You just have to tell her, Callie. Nakalimutan mo na ba kung gaano ka kamahal ng kapatid mo? She'll get hurt, yes. But she will understand because she loves you!”

“Then what will happen after that? Nothing will change even if I tell her the truth.” I muttered.

Swaine shrugged her shoulder. I took a deep breath again before closing my eyes. I don't know what to do anymore.

“Callie!” I stopped walking when I heard Celline calling me. I faced her and smiled.

“Yes, twinnie?” I tried my best to act as if something's not wrong. As if everything between us is alright.

“May... Favor sana 'kong hihingin sa'yo.” She said and sat on one of the high stool. Nasa kitchen kasi ako para kumuha ng tubig. I opened the fridge and took a pitcher of water.