Love and Crosses (DELREAL SERIES #1)

FIFTY FOUR

ZACH

I didn't know how I managed to drive safely. I just found myself staring blankly infront of our house. I heaved a deep sigh and rested my head on the headrest of my car, thinking that everything changed so fast.

I already stopped crying, maybe my eyes got tired too. Hindi ko alam na posible ko pala 'tong maramdaman. My eyes are dry but my heart is screaming in pain, so loud that it made me deaf.

We were okay a week before her graduation. We're even planning to go to Batangas so we can have a quality time together, then all of a sudden... She became cold and distant, and the next thing I knew, she's breaking up with me. How could she do that? How did she fell out of love? She just woke up and realized that she don't love me anymore? That she's not happy anymore? How could she left me like this? In this time where I needed her the most?

I blinked multiple times, trying to stop my tears from falling. Stop it, Zach. You can't cry, you can't be weak. You only have yourself now. You have to man up and accept everything.

I can't sleep that night so I have no choice but to drink. I don't want to call my friends as I don't want to be a burden, and besides, how could I explain that Celline and I broke up?

When I woke up, the first thing that came in my mind is Celline. I wanna see her, I know I promised that I'll let her go but I can't. I just want to see her, that's all. That's enough for me.

Ilang oras pa lang pero miss na miss ko na siya. Gusto ko siyang makita. Gusto kong marinig ang boses niya at sabihin sa'kin na magiging maayos ako, na magagawa ko pa ring bumalik sa dati kong buhay kahit iniwan niya na 'ko. I just needed to hear that from her dahil kahit gaano pa kasakit, siya lang ang paniniwalaan ko. Nang hindi ko na makayanan ay pumunta na 'ko sa bahay nila kahit parang pinupukpok ang ulo ko sa sakit.

“Gising na ba si Celline?” Agad na tanong ko sa kasambahay nilang pinagbuksan ako ng gate.

“Ay Sir, wala na po si Ma'am Celline rito. Umalis po.” My forehead creased.

“Saan siya pumunta?” I looked at my wrist watch, alas syete pa lang ng umaga.

“Hindi ko po alam, Sir.”

“Baka tinatago niyo lang siya?” I tried to peek inside.

“Hindi po, Sir. Wala po talaga si Ma'am Celline rito. Pasensya na po pero maiwan ko na kayo.” Pagkatapos ay pinagsarahan niya 'ko ng gate.

I ruffled my hair in frustration. Where the hell is she now?

Jam. Right. Maybe, she's with Jam?

Nag-drive ulit ako paalis para mapuntahan si Jam.

“Oh, Zach. Anong ginagawa mo rito?” Takang tanong ni Jam nang makarating ako sa bahay nila.

“Are you with Celline? Nandito ba siya?” His forehead creased before shaking his head.

“Wala siya rito.” I took a deep breath.

“Do you know where she is?” I asked again. I really wanna see her. Kahit sandali lang.

“Hindi eh. Wala ba sa bahay nila?” Nakakunot ang noo ni Jam sa'kin, halatang nagtataka. I shook my head.

“Can you call her? She's not answering my calls.” He nodded. I watched him as he dialed on his phone and call Celline. I was silently praying that Celline will answer his call.