Love and Crosses (DELREAL SERIES #1)

FIFTY SEVEN

ZACH

Badtrip tuloy ako no'ng araw ng taping namin dahil hindi ako dinalhan ni Celline ng kape. I waited for her but she didn't came!

I bit my lower lip while reading the script. There's a kissing scene. Na-orient na naman kami sa scene na 'to pero hindi ko alam na ngayon na pala 'to. I glanced at Celline and saw her looking at the script with her creased forehead, minamasahe pa ni Kath ang balikat niya.

“Start na raw in three minutes. Pwesto na!” Inilapag ko ang script ko at lumabas na ng tent.

I wanted to scold myself because I feel tense. Damn. This isn't my first time, bakit ako kinakahaban? Si Celline lang 'yon!

Right. That's Celline but she is not just Celline. She is my ex girlfriend and we have a freaking past. It was just so awkward.

I was just looking at Celline while she's confessing her love for Kyle. There it is again, punong-puno na naman ang mga mata niya ng emosyon na hindi ko kayang pangalanan. I stilled when she hugged me while crying. That wasn't part of the script so I was shocked. She broke the hug and I saw how pain crossed her eyes when our gaze met. She gently wiped my tears, ni hindi ko na namalayan na umiiyak na pala ako.

Everything happened so fast and the next thing I knew, her lips' pressed on mine. My breathing hitched and my heart beats faster. Its been five years since I felt the softness of her lips and I didn't expect the emotions rushed in my system. I pulled her closer to me and my hand tightened on her waist.

“Cut!” Agad kaming naghiwalay nang marinig si direk. Celline looked at me with her wide eyes, parang nabigla rin sa ginawa niya. Bago pa siya makapagsalita ay tumalikod na 'ko at iniwan siya roon. Kung pwede ko lang bugbugin ang sarili ko dahil sa nangyari. Hindi ko na maintindihan ang sarili ko! Bakit hindi ako lumayo kanina? Bakit hinayaan ko lang siya na gawin 'yon?!

It has been awkward after that. Nararamdaman kong naiilang si Celline sa'kin kaya hindi ko na lang siya kinausap tungkol do'n. Kaya naman nagulat ako nang makita ko siya sa labas ng hotel room ko.

“What are you doing here?” I asked.

“Ahm...” Binasa niya ang labi at naglumikot na naman ang mga mata niya.

“What?” I asked impatiently.

“Pwedeng... Pumasok muna?” I sighed. Kung hindi lang ako nag-aalala na may makakita sa kaniya sa labas ng kwarto ko ay hindi ko siya papapasukin.

I already expected that she'll apologize to me but I don't need that. I promised to Callie that I won't let my guards down again.

“Just leave, Celline. And please, stop apologizing. I don't need that.” I'm not dumb to not realized what she's trying to do. I know she's trying to win me back again but I won't let her. Just like what I always say, Callie did everything for me and I won't do something bad to her.

I actually don't understand why Celline's doing this. Why? She left me before! She dumped me! At ngayon, babalik siya? Na parang walang nangyari?

“Bumalik ka na sa'kin. Sa akin ka naman talaga eh.” What the hell is she saying?

“Are you drunk?” I asked confusely.

“Hindi mo na 'ko mahal pero may lugar pa 'ko sa puso mo, diba? P-pwede mo pa 'kong mahal—”

“What the fuck, Celline?! Stop being desperate and leave!” I wanted to take back what I've said when I saw pain in her eyes. I didn't mean that but I have no choice. The only way I know for her to stop doing this is to throw hurtful words. Para hindi na siya umasa na may babalikan pa siya sa'kin, na babalik pa kami sa dati.