falling for you [m.s.]

one hundred sixty one

after telling arizona to inform the patient amelia walked down the hall herself into the elevator.

she felt like she's in some kind of trance as she pushed the button in the elevator.

she has to cut into her sisters brain. not that she complains she decided it herself after all.

it's just getting so real and close. with reach. it's like a thing she could finally grab. like the painful last metres of a marathon.

she took a deep breath before leaving the elevator.

"word's getting around." owen exclaims walking up to amelia from behind. "you're gonna have a full gallery. everybody wants to see the show. you feeling good, confident? you're not worried, are you? are you worried? because the only reason i'm letting you operate on your sister is because you seem like you can."

"this is where you leave me, dr.hunt." amelia says as they came to the door that separates the normal with the o.r floor.

"oh. you okay? do you need anything?" owen asks one last time.

"i'm fine." amelia assures. "i'm great. i just... prep alone. so... i will see you on the other side."

amelia gave him one last smile before turning around and continue to walk. but before she got to the o.r she entered the bathroom first.

she looked under each toilet cubicle to see if anybody is in there.

after founding out nobody was there she walked in front of the mirror suddenly letting out a sob.

she knows she's a great surgeon but a little voice in her head always reminded her that she is just the other shepherd. but this couldn't affect her today. gwen is counting on her.

"okay. okay." amelia tries to calm herself down wipping away her tears. she once again took a deep breath. "we are doing this, okay? we're doing this."

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after putting on her scrub cap and taking off her coat she meet up with gwen and arizona in front of the o.r door.

she grabbed her little sisters hand with a smile on her face.

"let's get you inside now, okay?" amelia smiles at her sister.

gwen got wheeled in and amelia finally entered the scrub room.

she watched gwen and mark talking to each other making her only more anxious.

everybody's relying in her. everybody thinks she can do this.

and she can.

amelia grabbed a face mask but then decided to do something different. she put the mask away and turned around her back to the o.r.

she puts her hands onto her hips, pushing her breast forward, hips width legs. like a superhero.

"okay, i have everything set up." stephanie informs her attending entering the scrub room as well. "you will have all of your films, your favourite scrub nurse..." she trails off when she saw what amelia was doing. "what is happening?"

"i'm being a superhero." amelia blurts.

"okay."

"there's a scientific study that shows that if you stand like this in superhero pose for just five minutes before a job interview, or a big presentation or a really hard task, you will not only feel more confident, you will perform measurably better." amelia explains.

"seriously?" stephanie asks with raised brows.

"seriously." amelia nods looking at her for a moment.