He's in the Rain

chapter thirty-four

"i have no doubt you ordered all of this," yeonjun said, pointing at all the food placed on the table after tasting it one by one and finding out all of its taste. "these are too delicious to be your own."

soobin looked at yeonjun like he couldn't believe at what his boyfriend just said. he raised his right eyebrow and returned to his normal state. "i cooked all of these."

"yeah, sure."

later on, half an hour after dinner, they were laying down on soobin's sofa bed in another living room upstairs, at soobin's house. they were watching a movie. they planned on watching not just one movies tonight. they've agreed on watching at least three or four until they can fall asleep.

"why aren't you eating?" yeonjun asked as he offered the bag of popcorn in his left hand in front of soobin but he just shook his head, saying he's still too full from dinner earlier. yeonjun nodded and they continued with the movie.

an hour and a half passed by quickly and the first movie they wanted to watch was done. picking the next movie, yeonjun wanted soobin to pick what he wants but soobin let yeonjun decide. in the end, yeonjun picked a horror movie.

while watching the second movie, yeonjun remembered their first date as lovers. that was the day they went to the movie theaters which was also the day soobin said his first 'three words'. it was shocking, surprising, but it brings such feelings to the heart.

the second movie lasted for two hours and no one really spoke while watching. they were both too focused on the movie, although they're not really thrilled to watch for they are both not fond of the horror genre. they just wanted this specific movie, remembering yeonjun's cousin's suggestion.

after the second movie, it was time to pick another one to watch. this time, yeonjun really wanted soobin to pick what to watch but he refused again, saying yeonjun's preference is what he can't refuse to. for the third movie, yeonjun picked another comedy movie.

midway through the movie, soobin suddenly called yeonjun and asked, "are you happy?"

"why do you always ask that? of course, i am." yeonjun gave soobin a smile and continued on watching the movie and laughing while eating the barbeque-flavored popcorn that they were eating since the first movie was playing.

"no, yeonjun."

"what do you mean—"

"i meant, are you happy with me? with us?"

yeonjun raised his eyebrow in confusion, alongside with tilting his head while looking at soobin who just kept on having a straight face like what he said isn't something bothersome to the other. "what kind of question is that? yes, of course. i am beyond happy being with you, being loved by you, and loving you. what more could i ask for if i have you?"

soobin still had his straight face, but then, out of the blue, he smirked. "really? well, i'm not."

"what in the world are you talking about, choi soobin?" yeonjun couldn't clearly understand what soobin was implying, but he has an idea inside his head and he doesn't want to believe that the idea is true, that all of what they had will end after this moment.

"yeonjun—"

"what, soobin? say all what you want to say! hurt me because i know you will! you want to put an end to all of this, don't you?" at this point, without him noticing, tears were already falling from both eyes of yeonjun. he doesn't know what more to feel other than being hurt. it has been months since they've became lovers and even with a short amount of time, it is still hard to let go of everything. it hurts, and it will hurt more once it's over. will everything just go to waste?