Redemption

chapter 31

CHAPTER 31

SELENA’S P.O.V

A week later it’s Christmas. It was just a small family dinner, according to Kimmy lah, and it’s a dinner with the Bestians. Muka-muka yang macam mafia semua ni, menakutkan betul oh. Seram sejuk saya rasa, only the Bestian women saja yang tidak menakutkan.

Walau aura dorang menakutkan, tapi rupa dorang semua mengagumkan. Mempersonakan.

Saya terasa kikuk joining the Bestians for Christmas di atas permintaan Kimmy.

Sydney yang Holland bilang I should trust, celebrate Christmas with Rara’s side of the family.

Manchester the Chest dengan girlfriend dia. Jordan and Bella private celebration with Uncle Jackson di rumah and later will be joined by Jason and Holly.

Holland’s parents went on a private cruise ship, ngam-ngam juga it's their wedding anniversary.

Who else did I missed out?

Ah, the man himself. Tuan DPP Holland Robinson.

Saya kecewa.

Two days after saya pening-pening and had the 2nd orgasm of my life, Holland avoided me like I’m a disease.

On Sunday we still had normal conversation, masih act biasa lagi. Namun on Monday right after he went to work, saya jarang sudah nampak Holland.

Entahlah jarang atau tidak sama sekali.

But Sydney came to the house to meet me dan terus saya teringat kata-kata Holland yang merayu untuk saya mempercayai Sydney.

-flashback-

Sydney had both hands in the pockets of his pants. Tatapan dia berbeza kali ni, tiada senyuman jahil atau sengihan mengejek yang biasa dia lemparkan kepada saya. PMS kah apa dia ni after balik dari vacation?

“can I sit?” Sydney tanya saya.

Saya menganggukkan kepala, tapi dalam hati saya berbisik ‘you don’t have to ask me permission to sit, it’s your brother’s house, not mine…’

“kau mau minum?” saya tanya Sydney dengan sopan.

Walaupun dia ni menjengkelkan, tapi saya teringat kata-kata Holland. trusting him means being polite to him.

Sydney mendongak menatap saya….

“I’ll make you coff” I started to say.

“no… no… no, thanks. Saya sudah minum. Sumpah saya sudah minum” bingung saya nampak gaya-gaya Sydney. Saya pandai sudah bah buat kopi sedap! “Selena, sit. ”

Kenapa dia serious ni? menakutkan… mana Holland? my hands trembling… I don’t understand the fear and nervousness that I’m feeling right now…

“Selena…” lagi Sydney menyapa saya… “Holland told you anything?”

I nodded…
“he… told me to… trust you…”

Sydney menaikkan satu kudou…
“and…?”

“only that…” saya jawab…

Sydney mengerutkan dahi lantas mengusap rahang dia… dia seakan berfikir beberapa saat lamanya…

Akhirnya dia bersuara…
“I will be your lawyer…”

I looked at him in shock… why do I need a lawyer?

“you actually have one…” dia bilang lagi… “a public defense attorney…”

Saya menatap Sydney bingung…