Redemption

chapter 43

CHAPTER 43

Back to SELENA’S P.O.V

Saya ni memanglah bah juga blur kan. Saya pernah juga dengar si Uncle Phil marah Chester. Chester kena panggil blur kambing. Saya mengaku saya pun most of the time ‘blur kambing’ juga.

Namun, hurmmm. Saya tau apa yang buat Holland ‘kenyang’ dan sekilas kami bertentang mata, sangat jelas dia nampak marah.

Holland buat saya bingung. Like really really bingung. He reminded me of an old song. Not very old lah juga, but I think Katy Perry can pass as a mother to me. So he reminded me of Hot N Cold.

🎶 'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white 🎶

Uh. I just don’t know what to think sudah. So lebih baik saya terima saja kedinginan Holland daripada mau fikir dan merasa banyak perasaan lagi. Puas sudah saya sakit hati sejak kematian ibubapa saya dan kehidupan menderita bersama Aunty Vina and her family.

Saya melayan saja celoteh Pierre dan Sydney yang membuat saya dan Rara ketawa.

“You’re 18 right, Selena?” Aunty Suzanne bilang. “Where do you want to continue your studies?”

Ini saya terdiam, tapi Sydney jugalah penyelamat.
“Selena hasn’t decided yet. It’s a no rush, she can continue anytime.”

Then Uncle Peter mencelah.
“Come to Singapore.”

Huh? Kes pun belum selesai, janganlah saya berani-berani imagine mau terbang to Singapore.

“Yes, Selena. Your uncle here is the Chancellor of James Cook University.” Aunty Suzanne bilang.

Okay. I saw bukan Pierre saja yang beaming happily, but both Holland’s parents juga tersenyum gembira. Rara pun macam excited, not Sydney though.

Sydney berdehem.
“I think we should let Holland decide that.”

Pierre and his parents turned to Sydney with questioning looks.
“Holland?”

“Uh, yeah.” Sydney berdiri, dinner is actually over. “you wanna karaoke, sayang?”

Bijak juga Sydney mengelak dari dipersoalkan lebih lanjut kenapa Holland yang perlu memutuskan tentang kehidupan saya seterusnya kan. Saya menunduk pasrah. Of course, my whole life depends on Holland right now, he is my prosecutor. Hidup mati saya adalah dalam genggaman Holland.

Rara pulled me up from my seat.
“Mari berkaraoke, Sel!” Rara excited betul bah.

Kami semua berkumpul at the family living room where all the musical instruments, video games and all other kinds of games ada. The room’s very large juga with big screen TV.

Di sinilah Sydney and Rara mula berkaraoke, the Uncles main chess and the aunties main… kua merah! hahahaha!

Sempat lagi saya dengar si Aunty Bianca bilang.
“Tiada menantu saya pandai main ni, Bella pun sama saja, itu saja masak-masak di handphone dorang suka main.”

“Tu lah, menantu saya pun sama. Bini si Piolo and Page, main itu crush-crush saja.” Aunty Suzanne lagi merungut.

Candy Crush, aunty… saya bisik dalam hati. Tsk.

Sambil saya kesiokkan dengar Sydney and Rara menyanyi, Pierre duduk di sebelah saya offering me a glass of… water.

Dia pula minum wine. Sama betul perangai macam Holland. I nearly rolled my eyes.

Pierre’s eyes menatap something on the coffee table.
“Your handphone’s blinking dari tadi.” Dia bilang.

Oh? saya tidak sedar pula. Cepat-cepat saya reach for my handphone.