Redemption

chapter 1

CHAPTER 1

HOLLAND’S P.O.V

2 weeks or so earlier…

More than 2 years later… I’m still having the same nightmares of the explosion that took away Nathania, Jojie and Nathan from me… in just one fucking horrific day, I lost my wife and my kids… I’m wife-less and child-less…

Saya teringat keadaan Uncle Jackson when he lost his wife and thought he lost his youngest son… Jordy’s dad was strong enough to fight insanity… but at least that time he still had Jordy with him…

But me…

I’m no longer a husband and a father… I come home to loneliness and emptiness…

I drank myself to sleep… I felt depressed and melancholic… the only thing that made me sane is my family… mom, dad, my siblings… my nephews and nieces…

Kadang-kadang bila ada family gathering, saya memerhati anak-anak buah saya dengan hati yang sangat pilu… saya teramat sangat merindui Jojie and Nat…

Jojie… sumandak sudah you if you were still alive kan, baby? she would be dressing up like all teenage girls would dress… and growing up to find a handsome doctor like her Titi Bell…

I so remember the day when she was 3 and thought she fell in love with Jordy… that was every father’s worst nightmare… hahahaha!

I felt the lump in my throat… saya menekan dada saya, menahan sebak…  not now, Hol… not now… pull yourself together…

Seriously… saya sangka requesting for temporary transfer ke Mahkamah Juvana will be a break from my workload… cases in the high court is taking a toll on my mental health... terutamanya kes-kes bunuh…

Haihhh...

Budak-budak zaman sekarang memang minat cari pasal kah? is 'CRIME' their middle name and 'CRIMINAL' is their occupation?

I slammed the last case file shut…

I need a smoke… and a brother… or two… the perks of having brothers… tsk tsk… you can dump all your shitty day feelings to them…

Hmmm… paling dekat London… I looked at my watch 15 minutes to 1pm… saya whatsapp London…

Whatsapp with London…
Me: Don… lunch…
London: fuck…
London: I’m stuck in a trial…
London: fuck those cheating asses of a husband…
London: maybe saya patut suruh Jordan kasi inject mati pucuk tu b*tu dorang…

Saya ketawa terbahak-bahak… you made my day, Don… He’s stuck in a trial of a swingers club that was busted in a bungalow di Likas… I really don’t wanna think what he’s feeling right now with angry wives in the court room… but he needs to settle it fast before he starts bercuti...

Ok… London out… Chester tetap belum bangun…

Saya tersenyum… that leaves me with only one choice… and that one choice cannot escape from me…

Whatsapp with Sydney…
Me: Syd!
Sydney: tidak payah mau exclamation mark bah, setan…

I laughed out loud… setan oh ni adik...

Me: Sushi…
Sydney: saya tiada kereta ni…
Sydney: Rara hantar saya tadi pagi…
Me: bah, I’ll be there in 10…
Sydney: bah…

Sampai saja di bangunan pejabat Sydney and Bella, saya turun dari kereta and locked the doors…

I decided to have a smoke di bawah dulu sebelum saya naik… so I took out a pack of cigarettes, slipping out sebatang rokok dan lantas menyalakan lighter sambil berjalan ke arah the spot facing an alley where me and either one or all of my brothers would take a smoke everytime we’re here…