Redemption

chapter 7

CHAPTER 7

HOLLAND'S P.O.V

Yes, she's the girl that called me uncle-uncle and said I had pedo eyes on her...

I swear I didn't...!

When it comes to sex, I know I have different ideas that might only be in my wildest sexual fantasies... but I'm not that perversive to be lusting after a teenage girl yang masih pakai baju sekolah...

Ugh... thinking about it only made me cringe in disgust...

"you're alone?" I asked her cautiously...

"no, ada cousin saya menunggu..." dia bilang...

Ok... I don't know how true is that...
"I'll walk you down..."

She shook her head...
"I want to be here a little while longer..."

Saya meneliti wajah this girl... she's very pretty even with puffy eyes and pale skin... I saw a cut on her forehead yang nampak macam baru mau membaik... and I saw the sadness in her eyes... but a different kind of sadness... not only sadness of losing someone she loved, but she looks... broken...

Patah...

Tangan saya terangkat sikit... nasib saya tersedar sebelum saya tersentuh dia...

I wanted to wipe her tears away, if I could I wanted to heal the wound on her forehead with just a single touch...

But no, Holland... nanti dia ingat kau pedo lagi...

At last I stood up to leave...
"ok..."

Saya terkejut bila dia tiba-tiba menyentuh tangan saya dan dengan pantas she pulled away... but I've already felt like jolts of electricity running through my body, blood rushing through my veins when she touched me...

I inhaled sharply... what is wrong with you, Hol?

"yo... your jacket..." she blurted out...

Saya nampak dia sangat gementar dan terasa serba salah kerana telah menyentuh saya... so I smiled at her to ease her discomfort... and to ease mine as well...

"keep it..." I said to her and gave her mom's umbrella juga...

Bukan saja abang memayung, abang bagi lagi tu payung, ok... hahahaha!

She refused but I insisted...
"take it..."

Lantas saya meninggalkan dia di sana... I ran to my car in the pouring rain...

By the time I reached my car, saya sudah basah kuyup... I took off my shirt and wiped my face with my rain-drenched shirt...

Kenapa perasaan saya tidak tenang ni ah? it's ok, Hol... yang penting kau masih fit dan ber-sixpacked...

Dia bilang tadi dia ada kereta kan? her cousin is waiting di bawah... masih ada beberapa kereta berada di tempat parking kereta... so I think one of it should be her car with her cousin waiting for her inside...

So I drove off...

As I lay in bed that night, my thoughts wandered... but it's not Thania's face that flashed in my mind like all the nights before...

It's rather the disturbing face of a girl...

Saya cuba block fikiran saya dari memikirkan the girl... tapi semakin saya cuba menghapuskan bayangan wajah dia, semakin pula jelas wajah dia invading the privacy of my mind...

Damn, tidak lama saya makan pil tidur lah bah ni kalau gini...

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The days went by so fucking slow...