Sister Circle✔️

55. No Need to be Supersonic

JILL POV

While all her sorors were so happy in their relationships, she once again was alone and miserable.

If only Ivan could see she wanted to be with him now. How was she going to tell him how she felt if he already moved on? Who was this girl he was seeing? She had to get a look at her. Was she white? Was she Black?

Why did it matter? It should not have mattered to her, and she wished she could take back what she said to him. She was not even brave enough to talk to Sherry about it. Sherry was too involved with Taj and was rarely home at night anymore. She spent more time out of the house now than she did when she was with Donte.

So she spent many lonely nights alone. Listening to Ivan on the radio some nights.

Worse, she missed hanging out with her sorors. Besides their monthly Sister Circle meetings, they did weekly community service, but they barely talked while they did it. They had weekly meetings, and they only discussed business, then Zavrina and Lark would leave.

She missed hanging out doing nothing but being goofy, laughing, and having a good time.

The next Sister Circle meeting was her topic and she was leading it. "Dating Outside of Your Race." She had to go personal on that topic because she wanted to hear what others thought

"Why is this even a topic of discussion?" someone asked. "People can date whomever they want, it's not my business."

"But it is," another girl said. "There are not enough Black men to go around, and then Becky and Karen take the few good ones we have, what are we left with?"

That got some agreement from the ladies.

"But why are you looking at it like we have to date a Black man?" Zavrina stated. "There are more flavors than Baskin Robbins out there. White, LatinX, Asian..."

"You say that because you have some of all that in you!" someone shouted out.

"My background has nothing to do with it. When people look at me, they see Black, they don't see that both my parents are bi-racial."

"And you with one of the brighter brothers on campus...what's going on Zavrina?"

"Hold up!" Zavrina jumped up from her chair. "Don't play that colorism card on me. I like what I like. I've been with all flavors of the rainbow. My high school boyfriend was white. I've been with brothers darker and lighter."

She did not know that about Zavrina. She dated a white boy? Why had she never told her that? She learned something new about someone she thought she knew well. Then again, as Zavrina said, they were in the same sorority, they were not friends.

Even though it was her topic and she should lead it, she had little to say. She was too scared to state her opinion, so she continued to listen to the other ladies and let them go back and forth with their opinions.

"I think it's important for us to date someone we are attracted to, not just limit ourselves to one race. Diversity is good."

"And it's some cute Mexicans up in here!" someone shouted out as others laughed.

"White boys don't come up to us the same way the brothers step to white girls. I think the brothers know they have a chance because white women have always loved the Black man. When it comes to white men being attracted to us..."

"Hell, they were attracted when they were raping us as slaves!"

"Now come on, you can't compare that. Totally different."

"Agreed."

"I think white men view us differently than white women. We're exotic to them. We are the forbidden fruit."