Trigger warning: Suicide attempt & Abortion.
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ATTY. SUMMER AINE QUIN
26TH DAY OF APRIL, CALIFORNIA.
It was a beautiful morning, and I could hear the birds chirping outside. The skies were bright and the sun was slowly setting as I gazed out the window. I slowly stood up from the bed, but when I caught a glimpse of the mirror in front of it, all I saw was a miserable woman.
I gave the person in front of me a bitter smile. Her hair looked unkempt, she had black bags under her eyes, and her increasing belly was the most noticeable feature.
When I step outside, everyone touches my belly and says it's a blessing, but I know it wasn't. That wasn't the case at all. It was a nightmare. My karma had finally caught up with me. This was my punishment for being overly satisfied with things I didn't really deserve. I was hungry for love and naive enough to think they'd never leave.
"Fuck!" Mabilis na tumakbo ako papunta sa banyo at agad na dumuwal sa harap ng inodoro. Hindi ako tumigil sa pagsusuka hanggang sa hindi ko naramdaman ang paghapdi ng sikmura ko.
Nanghihinang napasandal ako sa pintuan at mabigat na huminga ng malakas. I was fucked up. I can't live like this every single day.
I was staring at the bathroom ceiling when tears began to stream down my cheeks. I am deafeningly quiet, and no words have come out of my mouth. I was crying but I didn't feel anything.
Namanhid ako. Dahan-dahan kong ibinaba ang mga mata ko sa aking may kalakihan na tiyan. My eyes immediately squinted at the sight of my belly.
Wala pa ring nagbago. Ayoko pa rin sa kaniya. Ayaw ko pa din sa batang nasa sinapupunan ko.
I slowly got up and went back to the bedroom when I suddenly saw a familiar photobook on the table. Agad na nakaramdam ako ng sakit sa loob ng dibdib ko habang nakatingin doon.
I slowly walked towards the vanity table and I felt the bitterness in my mouth as I stared at the cover.
It was us.
This was the photobook that I made after our Ilocos Sur trip. Narito ang mga pictures naming dalawa.
Maingat na kinuha ko iyon at nang buksan ko ang unang pahina, nakita ko nalang ang sarili ko na lumuluha habang nakaupo sa sahig. I was smiling here, but Zacharias was looking at my face with a bright smile. We both looked happy... and contented.
Napapikit ako ng mariin at umalpas sa aking mga labi ang mga hikbi na hindi ko napigilan.
Masakit. Masakit pa din.
Hindi ko pa din tanggap. Masyadong mabilis. Masyadong masakit para matanggap ko. Nakita ko na kasi ang buhay ko na kasama siya.
I hugged the photobook close to my chest and touched my six-month belly when I felt it move. Mas napahagulhol ako ng malakas dahil doon.
"Daddy's not here..." mahinang usal ko.
***
"This coming Friday, you will be scheduled. This card must be brought with you, and the procedure will not take long. Before the surgery, sedatives will be administered. "
Walang imik na tumango ako sa babaeng nasa harapan ko bago tumayo at tinalikuran na siya.
When I noticed women in the seats, I instantly stopped. As I stared at the women on the other end of the line, I could feel my body trembling. My gaze fell on their bellies, which were also pregnant, exactly like mine. Several women smiled at me, while several had a pained expression on their faces.
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