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Overwhelming subathon (Niki and Jack)

Niki's POV:

The sunbathon was going well. Doing it with Jack, assured myself that I would be able to do the entire 48 hours should it come to that. We had worked out a small series of hand signals, so that if something went wrong, we had a way of communicating without chat knowing. That's the only thing about streaming for that long: chat were going to be there the entire time. Now, don't get it confused, I love chat. But me being autistic isn't public, and I'm keen to keep it that way.

Jack was playing fnaf, and I was reading the chat. Somehow, I still managed to get scared. To be fair, I'm not a big fan of horror games; I played layers of fear recently though, and that was cool. I convinced Jack to play it on the stream, and it went well. In fact, we did loads before having our respective naps. And Jack changed it to 24 hours instead of 48, which I really appreciated.

After waking up, I was pretty overwhelmed, which was a problem. Being overwhelmed and trying to stream would be pretty difficult. Still, I had agreed to do this with Jack, and I wasn't going to let him down. We only had the rest of this day to go, and I would do it. Breakfast was good, and I tried beans on toast at chat's request. It wasn't bad, but it wasn't great either. Spending time talking to chat was good, but I could feel my brain slowly shutting down. Media shares were the last thing I needed, and yet there I was watching them. Random noises, jokes I didn't understand and things which might overwhelm me even more. I fiddled with my fingers underneath the desk, and tried to mask as much as possible, but I knew I needed to get out. The room was hot, and I don't deal with heat very well. There was air conditioning blowing on me but that was contributing to me being overwhelmed. So it helped, but it was also making it worse. Every minute more I spent in there, my level of control decreased. 

A media share came on of the sound of someone knocking on a door, and despite Jack reminding me it wasn't real, it scared me a little. Bad memories, I guess. But that was all I needed to force me to take a break.

"I'm just going to go get a glass of water." I got up from my chair and walked towards the door.

"Oh, it's alright. I'll go get it for you. You stay with chat."

"No, don't worry about it. I'll go." I acted as normal as possible, but pointed over my shoulder to the door. The signal that I needed to take a break.

"Ok. Let me know if you can't find the glasses or anything. I can always get the mods to talk to chat for a few minutes." I just nodded my head and left, forcing myself to take some deep breaths.

I thought about going downstairs, but Jack's parents were down there and possible still the man who was fixing the boiler. So I just went to Jack's room and closed the door behind me. Sitting on the edge of his bed, I closed my eyes and ran my hands through my hair gently, rocking backwards and forwards slightly as I did. Everything was just too much, and I couldn't cope. I felt like I was floating, and everything was moving slightly. Not quite spinning, but not staying still like they are supposed to either. I felt my phone vibrate and forced myself to focus on its screen. It was Jack.

Do you need me? I can come help

I sent a 'yes', and went back to what I was doing. Jack appeared at his door a few minutes later. He turned the lights on as he came in, and immediately apologised and turned them off, when he saw he push my hands to my eyes.

"My parents said you didn't go downstairs. I thought you might be here instead." I just nodded. "What can I do? A hug?" I nodded again, and took the hug he offered. It helped a little, but my brain couldn't quite gather itself yet. "You're alright. No one knocked on the door. And it's fine if you need to take a break. I get it: life's pretty overwhelming."

"I'm sorry, Jack." I started to cry, well I didn't even make  sound, but tears fell out of my eyes.

"It's fine Niki. Okay? It's fine. You're alright." He hugged me again, and this time kept the rocking I had been doing. I was glad to just have someone there, but Jack was a good friend, and he seemed to know what to do. "Can I do anything else to help you?"

"Just sit quietly, here with me. I can sort myself out."

"Oh ok. Yea, I reckon I can do that. And let me know if there is something I can do, like if you want another hug or..."

"Quietly, Jack."

"Sorry." He whispered and then twiddled his thumbs. I went back to rocking gently, and talking myself through everything. After 5 minutes, I convinced myself to mask again.

"Can I have another hug please?"

"Sure. You okay now?"

"Yea, I'll be fine. But I do need a drink."

"You go back to stream, tell them that I'm getting drinks and food, and that's why it took so long. I have a feeling you might be hungry after that."

"Just a little. Thanks Jack."

"You're welcome. And you sure you're okay to continue, yea?"

"Yep." I took some deep breaths and walked in, "hey mods, hey chat. Sorry about that, I couldn't find the glasses in Jack's kitchen. And we are both quite hungry, so Jack's just getting some food for us now."

"Oh, it's alright. We'll go now." It was one of the mods; I couldn't work out who.

"Thanks mods. Bye for now." I continued talking to chat, and Scott who had shown up in the chat. Jack came back with the food, and I felt myself starting to relax even more. We went doing media shares anymore, but Jack was doing my make up. Which went absolutely horribly, well, it was okay. He wasn't as bad as I thought he was going to be.

Once the stream was over, we stayed awake for a little, hanging out, before going to bed.

"Are you okay and everything?"

"Yea. Tired, but I've calmed down fully from earlier."

"If you don't mind me asking, what happened?"

"I woke up pretty overwhelmed today, and it just got worse as we continued doing stuff. The knocking noise was kind of the last straw. I'm fine now though, thanks for helping. I know you've had to help a little more recently, because you've been around when we've met up with everyone, but I really appreciate it."

"Ah, don't even worry about it. Now, are you hungry, because I've hidden ice cream at the back of our freezer. And I'm sure that Josh isn't clever enough to find it."

"Sure."

We went downstairs and talked to Jack's parent. Turns out, Josh had been clever enough. And Jack was a little annoyed to say the least.

A/n Hey. Thank you so much for reading. Sorry this one is a little shorter than normal. If I see anything shipping Jack and Niki, it will be deleted. Anyway, requests are welcome. I hope you enjoyed this, and I hope you have the most magical day ever.

Thank you,

Tag